Robert will be 3 weeks tomorrow and I am still getting used to the idea of having him in our family. It's so weird. I was waiting for his arrival for so long. After I had a miscarriage last year I was dreaming about a baby and now when I have him in my arms everything seems so surreal. I can't believe, I am a mom of two now and that I have a little boy to raise. It's exciting and overwhelming at the same time. I guess it's my hormones speaking. I thought I had PPD, that's how bad my hormones hit me on third day after birth. I lacked support and it throwed me even deeper in depression. But all is batter now and I feel like myself most of the time.
I am bored sometimes as I haven't figured out yet how to manage with two. I know I need to change a lot of things. I also need to let go of things like house and baking, which I really enjoyed doing. This is where I am emotionally.
Physically, I can't believe I gave birth just 3 weeks ago. My lochia has been gone for 10 days now, my 1st degree tear healed on day 4, it looked just like a little red/pink line and I've been meaning to look how it all looks now but have no time to myself in the bathroom. My 2.5 y old is always on radar of where I go
I do kegels and really want to start working on loosing some tummy. I feel strong and it's so amazing how much easier the postpartum and birth are this time.
As for nursing, I leak a lot but not as bad as with DD and overall it's much nicer. When milk comes in it hurts but it's normal. DS is a good nurser and already looks so much chubbier.
Well, the not so fun thing is that the baby has some gas issues. One day he is pooping and peeing and rarely fusses, on the next day he poops only twice and then I see he is uncomfortable. In no way, it's colic or at least if it is then a very mild case. Still, seems like I can do nothing ti help him. my diet is good, I massage his tummy and try to hold him a lot. Ohh the poop obsession stage is here!