What you did for the boys and yourself is nothing short of amazing. Having been through birthrape myself I know how hard healing is and how easy it is to shortchange yourself. Embrace the incredible amount of strength and determination you showed in having an unmedicated vaginal twin induction in a hospital and keep talking about what went wrong.
Physical recovery after phsychological trauma is slow, be gentle on yourself. And I'm glad to hear you have a professional with experience you can turn to, I hope it helps.
Wishing you a peaceful recovery, and congratulations again!