I'm getting really anxious lately and just needed to kind of let it out...maybe someone has felt similarly? I'm not anxious about the birth exactly (other than what would be normal lol) and not really anxious about being postdates, but its more about this overpowering worry that something is wrong with the baby.
This baby has been really mellow compared to my last, although it's been 7 years since I've been pregnant so maybe I'm just not remembering it clearly. I feel like this baby is overall pretty quiet though. It's movements are still within normal range, and heartrate is good, etc...I just worry that baby is...I don't know, sluggish maybe?
My other worry is that I just won't go into labor. I had a cesarean with my first and never went into labor, and I've sort of had that fear from the beginning, even though I *know* it's ridiculous. Being so far postdates doesn't help the situation. I'd really feel better if I was having some prodromal labor or something, even though I know that can become quite miserable, at least I wouldn't feel so...broken.
I guess I just need a place to vent today.
Marilyn, married to my soulmate Jay and mommy to Elijah Blaze 08/04/2003 and Mila Soleil 10/02/2011 .