Well, I haven't had a c/s - just one very complicated and scary vaginal birth that turned out just fine...but I am still a scared mess!
I've been looking ahead (too far ahead, I think, but I really just can't help it!), talking through things with my doula as I think through some variables and what I'd like to do differently this time.
My problem is that the pregnancy itself is going to be full of variables. I actually hope that things go pretty much the same as last time - it is one of the best case scenarios - and that involves magnesium and pitocin!
I guess I'm not a lot of help to you except to say, as someone who has had complications and interventions and a whollllle lot of fear during a vaginal birth, it was still the most amazing thing I have ever done - and we plan to do it again in 7 months or so! I would suggest that you find a doula or a friend or someone who you can talk through all this with now, and who can be there to talk you out of negativity (but in a POSITIVE way - I know of one doula in town nobody wants to hire because she says things like, "all I'm hearing is negativity," almost like "snap out of it you crazy freak!") during labor.
s:: You can do this!
I'm meeting with a hypnobirthing instructor in just a few minutes, actually - I can let you know if I think it will be helpful for keeping me calm in labor!