Just a rant post here.
Last week I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. The 2 weeks before that it seemed I ballooned all of a sudden. So with dealing with this new diet and my blood sugar trying to level out, and the not being able to breathe like I once did I almost had a panic attack the night before last. I really don't think I can make another 2 months of not being able to take deep breaths. I really don't. I "think" I can make it another month (which I'll have to so baby can become full term at least), but that's about it. I really want baby to come like as SOON as I become full term. I don't want to battle panic attacks while not being able to get a deep breath. They are not fun to begin with, but add the fact that I won't be able to get a hold of my breathing while going through one doesn't appeal to me. I'm scared of one. I was scared before because they are frightening, but I REALLY don't want one while in this last trimester. I was feeling GREAT until about 2 1/2 weeks ago. HELP!!! I have my next midwife appointment to check on my blood sugar numbers on the 30th. I need to talk to her then. They are most likely going to induce me anyways once I'm further along now that I am officially GD since I normally have big babies anyways and I seem to carry borderline too much fluid with every pg also. So with a GD dx, that might just seal the deal anyways. It might actually be a God-send anyway since I'm having breathing problems now. So needless to say, I am literally on the countdown to full term. But according to my past, I could go anytime after 35 weeks. And that is only 5 weeks away. (GASP! REALLY?!?!) Wow. So 7-12 weeks away. That doesn't sound so bad. (Although Husband will be gone for the next 4 weeks. He'll be 9 hours away by driving, but he'll have to fly since I have the only vehicle.)
Last week I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. The 2 weeks before that it seemed I ballooned all of a sudden. So with dealing with this new diet and my blood sugar trying to level out, and the not being able to breathe like I once did I almost had a panic attack the night before last. I really don't think I can make another 2 months of not being able to take deep breaths. I really don't. I "think" I can make it another month (which I'll have to so baby can become full term at least), but that's about it. I really want baby to come like as SOON as I become full term. I don't want to battle panic attacks while not being able to get a deep breath. They are not fun to begin with, but add the fact that I won't be able to get a hold of my breathing while going through one doesn't appeal to me. I'm scared of one. I was scared before because they are frightening, but I REALLY don't want one while in this last trimester. I was feeling GREAT until about 2 1/2 weeks ago. HELP!!! I have my next midwife appointment to check on my blood sugar numbers on the 30th. I need to talk to her then. They are most likely going to induce me anyways once I'm further along now that I am officially GD since I normally have big babies anyways and I seem to carry borderline too much fluid with every pg also. So with a GD dx, that might just seal the deal anyways. It might actually be a God-send anyway since I'm having breathing problems now. So needless to say, I am literally on the countdown to full term. But according to my past, I could go anytime after 35 weeks. And that is only 5 weeks away. (GASP! REALLY?!?!) Wow. So 7-12 weeks away. That doesn't sound so bad. (Although Husband will be gone for the next 4 weeks. He'll be 9 hours away by driving, but he'll have to fly since I have the only vehicle.)