I am doing pretty good! I got my staples out yesterday and it is INSANE how much better I feel. Travis is 6 days old and I feel mostly back to normal, which makes me very happy. I am being careful about not lifting too much (and my parents have been a huge help) but I really feel so good for 6 days post-op. Travis is nursing really well so hopefully he will chunk up at some point... he is still such a peanut at 5 pounds 11 ounces. We met with the LC at the hospital yesterday too and got some goodies to help my poor left nipple heal. He has a really good latch but I have a little sore spot under my left nipple from one bad latch and it just isnt getting better!
I hate to admit I'm having a tough time emotionally with the c/s. I worked so hard last time to have my vba2c and it went so great, I feel disappointed in myself for ending up with a c/s this time (I never felt that way about my first 2 c/s).
sleeping has been hit or miss, some nights are great, some....not so much...sometimes she goes hours 4-7 without any big sleep during the day, tiny naps but if i try to put her down she's like"HA! fooled you!"
I have to admit that i am still processing her birth. i am having a hard time emotionally when i think about the c/s, i know it was needed but at the same time i feel like a fool for planning a home water birth and telling every one i wouldn't get an epidural and then ending up with c/s. i know that sounds dumb, but i can't help it.
at least the ob that did my c/s reassured me that it wasn't my body, i have a nice roomy pelvis apparently and there is no reason i couldnt have a vbac. maybe thats part of the emotional bit though because were pretty sure clover will be our only child so i probably won't get a chance at a vbac.
sorry this is so long i obviously needed to off load some stuff!
Pinneapple, I know what you mean. My second c/s was supposed to be a HBAC, so it was really embarassing. And even worse because dd2 had serious health issues and is permantely disabled So I got a lot of "told you so" looks and comments. Sigh. I'm glad VBAC is an option for you, though. I don't feel like it is for me, which really sucks.
DD born 9/24/2010 :
mangosink0, I hope everything went well!
Rachel, OT, but how are things with your dh? I hope you guys got everything sorted out!
i keep getting this pain in my right side, i have no clue if its related to the c/s or just my body adjusting.
i finally looked at my scar today its a lot smaller than i thought it would be, they had to make the incision bigger than they normally would because she was really stuck in there, they had to use a vacuum to help get her out. unless i get some creative bikini waxing done no one will be able to see it.
i can kinda relate to the feelings of embarassment after "failed" hbac, i was all "hypnobirthing will help its all gonna go great and calmly".... 14 hours into labour cue hysterical screaming for hours as my adhesions ripped apart in my belly and my old scar started to peel.... that happening and no drugs being available was no fun i can tells ya! so i just tell ppl that she got stuck due to her size so i had cs, they tend to accept that n not pry deeper lol
I think whether or not you feel it was necessary probably helps a lot. I know with dd2 I never felt bad about the c/s because she obviously needed and probably wouldn't have survived without it. This time feels more like it happened because i got stuck with an on call ob who doesn't like to do vbacs :/ Of course, I could have refused, but after 24 hours of labor with no progress (and regresssion, since he moved UP instead of down!) I felt pretty defeated. I really wish my OB had been there, sigh. I'm having a hard time emotionally dealing with the c/s and I feel guilty about it.
in truth- regardless of the fact i was jammed stuck at 7cm for hours after my waters (which were holding me open to 10 cm n her head had started to come out- i saw it in the mirror, nearly born en caul lol) burst, sending her head shooting back up inside, and the internal bleeding due to ruptures etc which gives good enough medical reason for a cs, i would have had one anyway because IT HURT so badd...
...yup i was one of those mamas screeching for an epi and a cs RIGHT NOW lol so yeah, i'm at peace with it, i made my peace right there and then... i remember thinking "eff this, gimme drugs n an OR i dont care anymore"
sure i cried a bit for the first few days n found it hard to come on here and announce my cs, and of course i wish that it'd all gone smoothly n i'd just farted her out into the birth pool and been up and about 10 mins later baking cookies but hey ho..... :P
my first cs was very traumatic n left me mentally very sore about it all, but i've found peace with that too, my kids are so great and each have their own birth story and life ahead of them, i can't regret the way they were entered into this world, im just glad they were
i know in time u'll find ur peace with it all too, though i totally get how huge it all seems right now!
it's hard when u read stories of mamas who give birth to hbac footling slow progress 15lb triplet babies etc etc (ok slight exaggeration i kno lol) to not feel like we couldve done more/fought harder etc but in reality we got our babies here safe n well and worked way harder than a straightforward vag birth, both labouring hard for hours and going thru cs... so yeah someone hand out the medals already cuz we're hardcore! lmao
I'm glad you have such a positive attitude about it, I hope I get there at some point! I did with my first two c/s so I'm sure I'll work through this one, too.
you'll get there mama x
I'm feeling pretty good now recovery wise, still get sore if I do too much, but all my steristrips are off and my scar seems to be going down. I can feel a mass of tissue on my left side above my incision, which is gross, but it doesn't hurt, just scar tissue or maybe an adhesion.
I hope the rest of our c/s mamas are doing well!
yeah ive got a solid mass on the right side just above n below the scar, but i was really realllly bruised there at first from being wrenched just that iddy biddy bit too far... so i think it's just me going all lumpy from that, hopefully it'll go down after a while cuz it's making the flopped-over-fold of a belly-sack even more prominent lol
yeah i really hope that all the cs mamas are doing great, seem to be a ton of us! x
Just checking in with the c/s mamas! I'm almost a month out and feeling much better day to day, still not up to exercising, though! My scar is nice and flat now, thank God! (I seriously couldn't remember if it had been raised like that with my first two, it was kind of freaking me out!) Feeling much better emotionally about the c/s and the reality that any future children will likely be born by c/s. Hope you're all doing well!
I am almost 4 weeks post c/s and I feel pretty much back to normal thank goodness!!! Still get little sort twinges sometimes but nothing big. I hate my stupid skin flap hanging over my scar... it looks SO gross and just... eugh.
i'm in the same boat mama
its like a lil' fannypack..... (hahaha "fannypack" makes me LOL cuz over here fanny means something more frontal... haha we call it a bumbag but i guess you guys would find that odd)
Yeah, even when I am back down to my pre-pregnancy weight it is still there... sooo annoying!! I wish there was a way to make it go away.
Haha, I now! "Hmmm, do I want a icky flab of loose skin whacking me in my junk, or do I want to be split open from hip to hip and sewn back together with a nice visible scar for the rest of my life?"