I think you are struggling because you are on your perfect career path. Wanting outside work feels more like outside expectations to me. Like maybe your partners or family. People making you feel like you should work at some point, so figure it out.
Although I do think you have interests, I feel that none of them are taking a firm shape for you because they are not meant to be as a career.
I think your children are lucky to have you home with them and it's a beautiful thing. I see you with four children total.
One more thing, I do see you crafting. Not necessarily as a career, but something you enjoy doing.
*Please remember that all questions are answered here on the forum only. I do not accept private pm's for more information on your question.*
If you would like to leave me feedback, you can do so here:
Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to help you.