i delivered her in my bathroom after starting cramps in the shower. had 3 real contractions and she was in my hands. i keep seeing it over and over and over in my head.
she was beautiful...she lived for 2 hours. she even cried twice...little tiny cries. she was perfect. there was nothing wrong with her...she had blonde peach fuzz and james' round little nose and she was just so pretty. :'(
named her "Kelly Beautiful Rain". i know, it might sound kinda corny, but we planned on naming her kelly, then once everything happened i had to put Beautiful in there because she was so so so beautiful, and Rain...well she was so peaceful, and this is so sad, and it seemed to fit.
funeral and cremation on Saturday. thank god the funeral home is family owned and way way back they had a baby die, so they're waiving all their fees. so total $500. compared to almost $4k....
so, i'm out. best wishes and good luck to all of you.
There's no where you can be that isn't where you were meant to be, its easy
Becky, sahm to 25/04/2000 Chloe 12/04/2002 Cameron 19/02/2004 Caitlin 28/06/2005 24/07/2006 and Caden 14/03/2008
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I'm so, so sorry. You are in my thoughts. I love the name you choose. I don't even know what to say, but know that I'm wishing for whatever it is that you need to come your way right now.
You got to hold her and hear her, and love on her.
It's hard to know what to say
I'm so sorry, Mama. So, so sorry.
Me, DS, and DD Grateful to the baby I lost for sticking around long enough to teach me what I needed to know so badly We love our forest valley home, our goats and chickens, and wild harvested food-medicine
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Morgan - Wife to Eldi, Mama to 5 yr old ds Gabriel and baby Lucia, Doula -- my loves!
I think her name is beautiful and perfect.