Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: somewhere in the middle of America
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I'm so very hormonal and on the verge of a big melt down.
I woke up this morning after the best night's sleep I've had in ages, full of ambition and ready for another day of nesting and getting a bunch of homeschooling done. As I was getting my kids' cereal bowls out, my glasses snapped right off my face. They've been ready to snap for ages, we knew that. But I hoped it would at least wait til next pay day.
I'm something like a -13 prescription. So basically I can not see without them. Not even slightly. I've tried to duct tape them together, but one side is basically vertical while the other is horizontal. When I take them off to fix them, I can't see what I'm doing. I have to hold them right up in front of my eyes and even then I only see a small bit at a time, so I keep taping them on totally crooked and even at that the hold isn't strong, so they droop anyway.
It's hurting my head so bad. It looks extremely stupid. And we are 100% out of money. Nothing left even for gas in the car to get to an optician never mind to buy new glasses. I don't even know how DH is going to get to work every day this week. We have no money at all for Christmas. No money for the stuff we need for the baby/birth. DH has been doing a freelance job but it's not going as planned. We were supposed to have been paid by now (and quite well) but he hasn't completed the work and it's turning into a big mess.
I'm sitting here with a splitting headache. I can't see what I'm doing. I look stupid. I'm worried about everything. My kids won't stop fighting and screaming at each other. My son pooped all over the floor and I could hardly see what I was cleaning up. Tomorrow is the 9th anniversary of the day my daughter died of SIDS. I just now started crying which is good because I've needed a cry so bad. I just feel like everything is a big mess and I can't cope right now. I knew I'd have a bad day today, because yesterday was such a good one. *sigh*.
I just had to let it out. Thanks for listening to me whine.
Scottish Expat Mummy to: 1 angel and 5 earthlings (4 girls, 2 boys)