It's been some time since I've checked the boards:
Birth Story: It was pretty much scripted for me, I had a scheduled c-section since he had been transverse or breech since 34 weeks. BIRTH day was set for 12/9 putting him at 39 weeks and 1 day. C-section went smoothly, everything I was scared about didn't actually scare me the day of, such as the spinal block.
Baby stuff: Julian was born at 8lbs 6 oz and 21 inches, healthy and long! Due to his cleft lip and palate, it was strongly suggested that he go to the NICU rather quickly to assess his respiratory function and ensure he would eat well. That's UCLA for you, you get the million dollar work up. He spent Thursday, Friday, and 1/2 of Saturday there. I wasn't happy about it but the benefit was the tremendous amount of screenings, scans. and exams. He was seen by geneticists, occupational therapist, pediatrician, cranio-facial specialists, and the plastics team. His palate is open from the front to the back yet he has impressed everyone with his capacity to eat via bottle. We're using the special needs feeder (Haberman) from Medela. Hopefully, we can switch to a cheaper model, the Mead Johnson bottle after his lip repair surgery (Scheduled for sometime between 10 and 12 weeks).
His NICU nurse was working to get him out of the NICU as he wasn't hooked up to anything expect the heart rate monitor. I almost felt guilty when I would visit with him, in his pod there were 4 other babies with serious organ issues. The pediatrician was very difficult to work with and I working on a formal complain letter. We had 3 interactions with him and each time he made unprofessional comments such as calling Julian an weakling. I have cried about this many times because I didn't stand up to him. Julian's discharge was pending his signature and I didn't want to upset him. This isn't like me but I was overwhelmed.
The ped didn't want Julian discharged because he had lost 10% of his body weight, this wasn't my fault. The NICU was feeding him conservatively. By Saturday, he was crying until he joined us because he was hungry. I was reprimanded by the ped because he was taking in 27ccs per feeding instead of the expected 65ccs. I didn't know this was their goal/expectation.
Week 1: We visited with a lactation consultant that helped resolve my water blister on my left breast. It's still healing, ouchie! She was a great support. We also visited our pediatrician and he had regained some of his weight back. We also visited our pre-selected cranio facial team and Julian was 2 oz shy of 8lbs! He received some dressing for his cleft lip and we had a pleasant visit.
Week 2: I am pumping 5-6 oz per session, every 4 hours. I have milk in the freezer already, some in the fridge, and some fresh stuff (1 bottle) on my nightstand. Milk everywhere! I hope I can sustain this for at least a year as he will be on a liquid diet until his palate is repaired between 10 and 12 months. The c-section recovery is finally improving. I am off of Vicodin and take the Motrin every 6 hours. I hope to be off of that by next weekend. I walked at the mall for 1 hour today and felt tired. One day at a time...it's just hard when I am used to multi-tasking and independence.
I said it on Facebook and I'll say it here too...thanks so much for sharing. he is absolutely gorgeous and I am bowled OVER by all that hair! I'm glad you're healing well and the milk situation sounds GREAT...
Nine kids and four , living and learning all the time
Congratulations, he is a beautiful baby! It sounds like things are going really well overall, even though you've got a really long road ahead of you. I can't believe how much you are pumping--that's incredible! Keep it up!
Good work mama!! You're doing great on the milk! Don't beat yourself up about the ped. I know what you're talking about, I have instances that I look back on with regret when I should have said or done something, but you had just given birth, you had a newborn in the NICU, and you were dependent on this doc and the path of least resistance was not to rock the boat. Even though it may not feel like it, you did exactly what your son needed you to do to get him out. Will Julian be able to nurse after his surgery or will it be a longer process to get to that point that he could?
Congrats on a beautiful little guy and I hope your recovery continues to improve!
I know what you mean about the regrets -- I already regret having allowed DH's family to show up at the door less than 24 hrs after the birth. I didn't feel like I could tell them no, and then they proceeded to pass him around and I didn't get him back in my arms for hours. I was ready to cry by then. Next time, no visitors for several days, and/or I will seriously learn to speak up and say no!
Anyway, congratulations on making your birth powerfully your own regardless of circumstances, and congratulations on that milk production, even in the midst of c-section recovery! Super impressive, nice work! And of course on your gorgeous little one and his amazing head of hair! :)
mama to jasper (12-17-10) and theodora (11-13-12)
He's gorgeous and I love his name. Well done mama, for growing such a strong, handsome little guy. He'll do great.
I'm so sorry you've had such a hard time with the ped. Writing a letter of complaint is a good idea. I hope you can heal emotionally from the trouble he has caused.
Strength and peace