...and I get so far behind! serves me right for running off and having my baby!
Gideon Mack Edwards, born January 30th, 2011 (almost made it to February), weighing 8 pounds 5 ounces and 19 inches long. Labor was not good and I have so much to share. Unfortunately Gideon is cluster feeding and my dogs still hasn't made up her mind about babies. Will be back later with more!
Also congratulations to all of the mamas holding their new little ones and hang in there ladies, your time will come!
Birth story is here http://spudbugblog.blogspot.com/2011/01/storytime.html
and here is my man!
Congrats! Welcome Gideon!! And oh, I hear you on the cluster feeds. I'm about to lose my mind!
So exciting! That's not what I was expecting from this thread. Can't wait to see a photo of your sweet Gideon. I'm sorry that labor was rough and I look forward to hearing everything you need to share!
Hey mamas, so sorry I haven't been able to keep up and congratulate you all on your new little ones. I remember before Gideon came reading how some mamas had experienced traumatic labors and births and needed time to heal afterwards emotionally. At the time I had no understanding of what that meant, now I wish I didn't. I have been struggling with how it all went down (birth story in first post) and with postpartum depression. I am so grateful for my OB, today I went back on Wellbutrin (which I was taking before TTC) and I hope that soon I will be back to being myself.
I did want to share this amazing link my husband found to a rain sounds video that puts Gideon right to sleep. It is the perfect white noise and I find myself putting it on when I am able to sleep as well. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNkaeUr3-HU
Oh and check out this fantastic video of Gideon's newborn pics! I am so happy that y photographer friend Emily came over and took pictures for us! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6YF3RarhkIM
I'm so, so sorry. I had an incredibly traumatic experience with my first child. Coupled with PPD, it's almost impossible to imagine that it will ever be better - but it will, I promise.
Pieces of wisdom that helped me along the way:
- You can feel multiple things at once. You can be grateful and in love with your child, and incredibly sad about his birth. Those emotions are unrelated, and you don't have to feel guilty for feeling multiple things at once. Anyone who implies that you should "just be glad you have a healthy baby" has no idea what you've been through. A healthy baby is a miracle, and your experience was traumatic. Not related, and they don't need to be.
- Grieving and processing is spiral-shaped - imagine the event and emotions surrounding it as a straight line going out from the inside to the outside. When you start, you're at the center of the spiral, and so you have to pass that point over and over in short succession. As you move along the spiral, though, the time gets longer and longer between the times that you experience the emotion - although you shouldn't be surprised to experience it sometimes.
- If anyone gives you a hard time about Wellbutrin, tell them to shove it. You know what you need and what works for you (for me it's Zoloft, which I restarted yesterday).
I am wishing you peace and thinking of you often, Mama. Please PM me if you ever want to .
Wow mama, just read your birth story and I am very happy for you that you have your beautiful healthy son in your arms. What an intense labour! And that does sound like an incredibly traumatic experience. Have you thought about writing a letter of complaint to the hospital regarding those nurses? Telling you to be quiet???? I can't even imagine someone telling a labouring woman to be quiet. Telling you that you are hurting your baby?? Unbelievable!!! Making you wait so long for the pain meds. Wow. Totally unacceptable.
Just got to see his pictures - he is so stunning! What a beautiful boy!