So any mama who has had natural childbirth, heck, any childbirth, knows that it hurts. However, it's the easiest forgotten pain there is. Otherwise, we would only have one, lol.
by the time I was due with all my others, I was just so tired of being pregnant that I was like, "Bring on the pain!" and didn't care. I would also forget how much it hurt until that first really stong active labor contraction reminded me. Then, I might ask myself, why I was in such a hurry, lol.
However, something weird is going on with me this time I just noticed. Everytime I have gotten really crampy (from a virus that gave me horrible tummy trouble and diarreah) or today having the pains I am having, I get a little tense and remember how bad it hurt last time (it was a very intense 2.5 hour labor so yeah, it hurt, lol) and I get a little nervous and wonder if I am really ready.
Its so weird because I have always forgotten the exact insensity of it though we never forget it intense, and just welcomed it. Now, I am kinda antsy and the thought of it kinda scares me a little which I know isnt crazy itself but just new to me personally. You would think by #6 I would be cool, weird that just now is when I am nervous. I wasn't even scared about the pain with #1 so why now?
Upon the slightest hint of the pain of contractions, I remember how it hit me so hard and fast last time. Within 15 mins of the first couple contractions I was unable to walk, then soon, unable to speak and thank goodness I wasn't alone and DH was there because I couldn't do anything at all! He had to do the pool (I don't recall much of anything it was such a blur as I was in labor land reallly quickly) I think now since DH is back to work vacation is over, and he works afternoons and dont get home till really late, there is a good chance it will start while he is at work and will take 1 hour for him to get home. If it hits me that hard and fast again, what in the world would I do this time having a toddler to watch all by myself? I keep telling myself these things work themselves out and it could just as easily happen middle of the night when he is home or his days off. Mainly though, its the pain that is scaring me and I am not sure why since fear of pain is so new to me as I deal with it alot anyway.
Any tips on letting go of this and focusing on the possibility that this labor may be totally different from last and not be as intense (trying not to use the word painful anymore, lol) then I welcome the advise. Has anyone else dealt with these fears as you got to the end?
by the time I was due with all my others, I was just so tired of being pregnant that I was like, "Bring on the pain!" and didn't care. I would also forget how much it hurt until that first really stong active labor contraction reminded me. Then, I might ask myself, why I was in such a hurry, lol.
However, something weird is going on with me this time I just noticed. Everytime I have gotten really crampy (from a virus that gave me horrible tummy trouble and diarreah) or today having the pains I am having, I get a little tense and remember how bad it hurt last time (it was a very intense 2.5 hour labor so yeah, it hurt, lol) and I get a little nervous and wonder if I am really ready.
Its so weird because I have always forgotten the exact insensity of it though we never forget it intense, and just welcomed it. Now, I am kinda antsy and the thought of it kinda scares me a little which I know isnt crazy itself but just new to me personally. You would think by #6 I would be cool, weird that just now is when I am nervous. I wasn't even scared about the pain with #1 so why now?
Upon the slightest hint of the pain of contractions, I remember how it hit me so hard and fast last time. Within 15 mins of the first couple contractions I was unable to walk, then soon, unable to speak and thank goodness I wasn't alone and DH was there because I couldn't do anything at all! He had to do the pool (I don't recall much of anything it was such a blur as I was in labor land reallly quickly) I think now since DH is back to work vacation is over, and he works afternoons and dont get home till really late, there is a good chance it will start while he is at work and will take 1 hour for him to get home. If it hits me that hard and fast again, what in the world would I do this time having a toddler to watch all by myself? I keep telling myself these things work themselves out and it could just as easily happen middle of the night when he is home or his days off. Mainly though, its the pain that is scaring me and I am not sure why since fear of pain is so new to me as I deal with it alot anyway.
Any tips on letting go of this and focusing on the possibility that this labor may be totally different from last and not be as intense (trying not to use the word painful anymore, lol) then I welcome the advise. Has anyone else dealt with these fears as you got to the end?