Thanks to everyone for the continued support, it is so meaningful. I have read and reread the posts. Both DH and I continue to feel that Asa is OK. That he is where ever he belongs cosmically, and I always kind of imagine him with my grandfather, wearing that early sleep smile baby's get. Strangely, when I pray for him one of the things that I ask for is that he is warm.
We are doing OK... good days and bad days. We are kind of in a false world. We aren't staying at home, we are with my inlaws, I'm not working yet and one of my best friends is in town visiting. DH is back at work and he is struggling. He is finding that he has to tell a lot of his clients what is going on and is having to relive Asa's tragedy over and over again. We are just kind of melancholy. No longer puddles on the floor, we just kind of don't get what is going on and why this is all happening.
Anyways, thank you for your support, I always knew this was an amazing place.
Due January 23rd with my
Missing Asa James, born into this world 11-17-08 and into the next 12-25-08