At 6:15 pm, two weeks ago, my father in law died. He suffered a heart attack early in the day from an aortic dissection. It quickly ruptured and he had to have open heart surgery. They couldn't save him. It's been rough. This is the first loss I've ever experienced and there is so much grief, anger, depression, sadness in our house. My babies are heart broken and their behavior is all off whack. My husband is trying so hard to maintain. He was learning the family business from his dad and had just worked with him the day before. He now feels the burden of the huge shoes he has to fill with little guidance. I am trying to quickly learn as well, so I can support mother in law. I just never imagined this would be so hard. I've been with my dh for 10 years. Our families are very close. I'm so sad for everyone and it breaks my heart that my kids won't have their Papa. Thursday is my oldest kindie graduation, Papa was going to come. I'm so glad she didn't know that because atleast now she won't have that sadness added to everything else. It just seems surreal. I can tell now that all the family has gone home and we are in our own home everyday, the kids are really having a hard time. They were loving all the time with their aunts, uncles and cousins. The silence is hard to bear. I just sit and cry and pray that my dh can stay strong. He's always struggled with his health (diabetes, depression, celiac) and I'm terrified of what this could do to him. And my poor, poor mother in law...alone in the country on 35 acres. 37 years of unconditional love and then the suddenly alone, I can't even imagine...
Thanks for reading....sorry for rambling!
You sound like a very loving family, and my heart goes out to all of you.
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Dr.John Bergman, speaking about the human species.