Over a year ago, my baby sister took her life. I saw my mom two days ago for the first time since she left us. The profound grief that seems to have taken over the last 48 hours is crushing. Instead of brining my family together, it has broken it irreparably. I no longer speak to the surviving sibling and my family has moved away. I am utterly alone, having lost my best friend and also have the looming divorce to deal with. I am not sure what I need but it hurts. Nothig could hurt memore for she was MY baby. Right now I feel lost after feeling I had come so far.
"And when our baby stirs and struggles to be born it compels humility: what we began is now its own." Margaret Mead
mama i am so sorry.
It is sooo hard to lose your best friend. I lost my brother 25 years ago and suddenly that crushing grief still comes on. Mostly for things i would have loved to share with him. we just had his anniversary last month.
Your many minions hopefully will be able to help you pull through.
as i lay in hospital to give birth whilst my ‘dear’ husband (who had been vacillating between wanting a divorce and not sure what to do - in the end i made up his mind for him) went off to play tennis and hang out with friends, i Soo dreadfully missed my bro and father who would have never left my side.
Lots of hugs to you.
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