My Papa taught me how to drive, bought me my first car, bought me my
first bouquet of flowers, he took me all over the country in his semi-truck, he took me on huge vacations, he taught me that it was always better to give than to recieve, he did everything for me. He was my Father in addition to being my Grandfather.
We took some of the flowers from his funeral (there were over 30
plants & bouquets!) to his Dialysis center, the receptionist & his
favorite nurse came out & said they already missed him. He taught
them all about being happy & living your life to the fullest. He
made everybody laugh, infact my Mom got a card in the mail yesterday
from a friend of hers when she was 10 that she hasn't seen in 40
years saying that he still remembers my Papas laugh & he is sure
everyone in heaven is cracking up.
My Papa was so brave & noble, he made the decision to end dialysis &
never went back, he could not bear to burden us & he could not bear
the pain any longer. He called all of his friends & told them he
was 'cashing in his chips' & let them know he loved them & told them
goodbye. What an amazing man, I only hope I can be so giving, brave
& selfless in my life.
I wish I knew the words to explain how I feel... Lost, Angry, Scared, Alone & Cheated to name a few. I miss him so much. I have never went this long in my entire life without talking to him.