I look at my newborn son and it sometimes is very bittersweet. He will never know his grandpa. He will never know how much his grandpa would have adored him. He will never be tickled by Dads bushy beard.
When we found out we were having another son my first thought was that he would look like his grandpa. DH and his Dad didn't really look much alike. DH favors his mothers side of the family. I was more right than i thought i would be. DS looks nothing like his daddy and looks just like his grandpa. He even has his grandpas grumpy look.
I miss Dad....my FIL SOOOOOO much. He was the daddy i never had. He was the perfect grandpa to all his grandchildren. He was a grouchy old man with a heart the size of Texas that was made of gold.
I am MAD!!! It is unfair that he isn't here with us anymore. He was the best person. WHY did he have to be the one to go? I want him here. I want to hear his voice and watch him play with the grandbabies like he is a big kid himself.
I only knew him for 3 years. Such a short time. Such a HUGE impact on my life he made. 3 years wasn't enough. 30 years wouldn't have been enough.