I just cannot wrap my head around it all and I cannot sleep.
I've been friends with A since we were in 2nd grade (we're now 29) and I've known her family for almost as long. Her mom was absolutely the coolest mom I've known and I always found it amusing that she never cared that her children cursed in her presence (not at her, it was just that mild cursing wasn't a big deal in their home).
Over the years, her mom would call me her "daughter" because I was always around or bugging my friend, so I guess I was an extension of the family in some ways. Up until 7am on Christmas, she was talking...even worried about getting her presents wrapped...and then by 9am, she was gone.
She wasn't sick other than feeling out of it for a few days before and then passing out on Saturday night, which landed her in the hospital. But after tests on Saturday night, the doctors couldn't give an explanation for what was wrong with her. My friend's family is having a private autospy done, but it still doesn't bring Mama T. back.
I'm sorry I'm not going anywhere with this other than to say I just don't understand WHY this happened, especially to such a sweet person, to such a down-to-Earth person. She had just retired, she was enjoying time with her grandson and she had just come back from a trip to England (that was won by my friend on a whim!). She should still be here. She should not be gone, but dammit, she is.