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That would be fine to let them know how I am doing.
We are hanging in there. It has been one month and four days...I can't believe it. Some days are easier than others, but they are mostly all hard.
Today I had a hard time...we have put all of our things in storage. It was one thing to pack up all of Emma's things, I was packing the whole house. But, putting it all in storage, that was hard. I couldn't help the whole time, it was just too much.
My dear sweet husband is still in shock I think. He is taking care of me, which I think doesn't allow him to fully feel all his grief. I continually tell him not to protect me, but he can't help it. I think that when we have another baby it will really hit him hard.
We just moved to Utah. It was a long drive, but it was nice to go to my baby's grave the other day. The move to Utah was planned...just not so soon. My husband was going to go to graduate school at the University of Utah next fall anyway...Emma just got us out here a little sooner. We are now staying with my parents for 2 weeks, then with Jeremy's Uncle and Aunt.
I miss Emma everyday so much. It is nice to be here near her grave and have a place to go and talk to her.
We are trying again, but I haven't started my cycles back yet. I was full time breastfeeding when Emma died..so we are patiently (not really) waiting for them to return. We wanted to get pregnant this fall or winter anyway, so we decided to stay with the original plan. We both feel such a strong need to fill our arms again. Without Emma everything is so quiet...we need that to change.
Thank you again for your love and support. We both appreciate it so much.
Much love to everyone,
Kim and Jeremy