I laid her down for a nap after an hour of nursing. My fil went to check on her, and 10 minutes later, my mil found her dead on the floor. We don't understand how or why this happened. She was 8 months old. If she fell off the bed, she can crawl, she would have cried and crawled...she was a speedy crawler! I miss her so intensley.
My husband and I live in Kansas, but most of our family is in Utah, so we buried her here. We will be going home next Saturday..we are both so scared about that. Right now we are distracted...not many memories of Emma here, and we have so much family to distract us. But, at home...she is everywhere.
I don't know what else to say...I am sure that as we continue to heal, I will need to ask questions, and know that I am not the first mom to feel this way, and not alone in my grief.
Thank you for listening
I can't even find the words to say what my heart feels.
I can't say the words what I feel inside me.
my heart breaks for you and your family. hold your husband. Be held by your husband. Be loved.
Be loved by us here.
I wish I could hold you and let you scream and cry. I would need everyone in my life to do that for me.
I will hold a prayer for you and your family.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
Please know that all of us here will support you in whatever small ways we can in the days and weeks to come.
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as for the full breasts that is something i actually feel i can at least help you with.
you can wear cabbage leaves (chilled) inside your bra. sage is known to help decrease milk production, and may help a little. peppermint is also thought to decrease milk supply as well as antihistamines. i cant help you with your aching, broken heart, but i can at least try to help prevent you from getting mastitis.
I am sorry for your loss.
I wish we could take away some of your hurt and pain from the loss of Emma. You are in my thoughts and prayers and also in those of the Lawrence AP group. Please let us know if there is anything at all we can do to help, we're not that far away. She was a beautiful little angel.
I truly believe that your precious Emma is sitting with God in Heaven right now.
My deepest sympati to you.
You little daughter is an angel in heaven now, and she was so very lucky to have a mama who loved her so very deeply...
Please know that you are not alone in your despair. You are right to grieve and hurt, and you are right to come here for support. Talking about your feelings, grieving, and remembering your baby will help heal your pain.
You are in my thoughts, and my prayers. You are a courageous woman.
We love you. Stay strong.
Hubby , ds (11) , adopted dd (10) , dd (6) , dd (1) & 3 foster dd's
My heart aches for you, your husband and family.
I know that all of us here at MDC will be here for you whenever you need us.
Please take care of yourself. rest, grieve, scream and shout, for however long it takes.
May God shine his perpetual light on you and yours.
I live in Wichita. You didn't mention where you lived in Kansas, but please PM me if there is anything I can do to ease the burden, or if you just need a shoulder to cry on or someone to yell at.
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When you get home, consider looking for a support group for parents who have lost an infant. I lost my daughter a month ago and my husband are involved in 2 grief support groups, one through our church and one specific to parents who have lost a child from conception through late infancy. Feel free to pm me if you want to talk or cry or get angry or mourn. My heart is breaking for you.