Hi ladies - not sure if anyone has any suggestions but I thought I would throw this out....
I'm due to give birth to my first child in the next 3 or so weeks. Since I have become pregnant, I've had 3 deaths, a very near death of my very best friend and then this sunday I got a call that my mother tried to kill herself. I'm starting to get a little overwhelmed by all this. What's more, I live in New Hampshire and mom lives in Indiana. Things with my parents (who are divorced) have been very tense since the end of September (long story) and a huge source of stress in my day to day life. I keep a good attitude about it most of the time and am able to focus on the joys of my pregnancy but it's not easy dealing with the external forces and I worry that my stress might effect the baby.
My history with my mom is full of "drama". She didn't come to my highschool graduation, caused a HUGE scene at my college graduation, left my wedding reception in a huff and now has tried to kill herself two weeks before my baby is due. I feel terribly guilty for saying this, but I literally feel angry with her selfishness. I know she's depressed and obviously having a hard time with life right now, but I still can't help but be pissed off over the whole thing - especially since I'm so far away and not able to travel at this point, my hands are completely tied.
I have not spoken to her, she's medically stable in the critical care unit where they have no phone access. Her finace is the only one there with her and he doesn't want to see her admitted into the psych. wing. He's been threatened with security since he's put up so much of a fuss about that. Truthfully, that is probably where my mom needs to be most so she can get stabilized on meds again and is no longer a threat to herself.
Part of me wants to send flowers, but I don't want to acknowledge her cries for attention. I don't want her to think if she tries to kill herself, her family will respond by giving her the attention she feels she deserves. BUT, I don't want to seem caloused. I'm obviously not about to tell her that I'm angry, dissappointed and disgusted with her behavoir.
I truly want to be supportive and loving but how do you do that without playing into the behavoir?
I'm certainly hoping the situation gets resolved before I give birth because I fully intend to focus on my baby but geesh, who needs this kind of stress ever, let alone when you're full term with your first child
Thanks for listening!