I can so relate. I lost my Dad 13 months ago when he was only 57. my two daughters were the lights of his life. They (especially the 4 yo miss him so much. It is hard enough worrying about yourself, but watching a 4 yo cry that she misses papaw will rip your heart out. My mom now lives with us & she is very depressed. She seemed better the end of last year, but once the anniversary got close, she started spiraling down again. I've told my husband I am greiving for so many things, not just missing my Daddy. I was a HUGE daddy's girl. But we also have to greive for our children who will now miss out on so much, & our remaining parent who will never be the same again. It is getting easier, but I still miss him so darn much. Both of our would are so fresh still. I just pray that it will get easier, 5-10 years maybe. I know it will never go away, but we'll just learn to deal with it better. A good friend of mine last her dad Saturday. I cannot stop thinking about her. She has no idea what lies ahead. But unfortunately, we all do.