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#1 of 761 Old 05-02-2008, 07:55 AM - Thread Starter
 
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he wasn't sick. but apparently he had a giant brain tumor behind his right eye.

when we tried to help him, he couldn't take it, and he died.

i don't know what to do/say. i don't know who or what i am anymore.

he was a beautiful, smart, perfect little boy, and he's gone from me forever.

i'm so angry and sad. it goes back and forth.
my apartment smells like flowers, and it's gross.
i did my best, but it wasn't good enough.
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KT, I've been thinking about you ever since I got the call last weekend. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. M has my number if you ever want to talk.

Lots of love to you and J.
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thanks, d. i've been thinking of you, too, before all this happened.
hug your little girl tight.
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Words really feel inadequate but please know you are in my thoughts.

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I'm so sorry. Like a pp said, words are just inadequate here.


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Words cannot express how sorry that I am for your loss.
No one should lose a child.
I wish you peace in your healing.
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You're in my prayers, KT.
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There's nothing that could be sad to ease your pain and sadness. I just want you to know that a lot of people are thinking about you and sending you lots of warmth and prayers. We are here for you.

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Sending you much love & support. I am so sorry for your loss.
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My God, I am so sorry. I have no words either. What an awful shocking loss, beyond devastating. My heart goes out to you, mama.
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You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Eternal light grant unto him, O Lord, and may perpetual light shine upon him.

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"God saw you were getting tired,
and a cure was not to be.
so he put his arms around you
and whispered, "Come to me."
With tearful eyes we watched you,
and saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.


Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

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I'm so sorry mama.

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I'm so sorry for your loss. There are no words.

My thoughts will be with you.

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I am so sorry.
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I am so sorry...There are no words. What a terrible, terrible loss...

Mama to Finn (04/05) Arlo (04/07) and Henry (04/10)
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I am so sorry.

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I am so so so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.

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You and your family are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
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I am so sorry, ktbug.
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I'm so sorry, you are in my prayers.

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Oh my God, I am so so sorry.

~Joan, Happy mom to 2 beautiful kiddos, one new puppy and 2 lovely felines
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I have been thinking of you all week and wanting badly to hear something, anything, of an update.

Your perfect and beautiful boy--You will always be his mother. You are 100% a mother, always. I saw Lucas' pictures and they are stunning. There is so much love in your family.

Nobody should tell you what to think or feel. No thought is too terrible. This is the worst, a nightmare. Anything you are feeling is okay. Nobody will judge here.

I am so sorry. There just are no words that seem like enough to say how sorry I am for what you are experiencing.

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I am so so so sorry, I can't even begin to imagine the hurt. I wish I could do something to make it better. I am so sorry, thinking of you.

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God no!!!

How can that be? How can your baby be here one minute and gone the next? Thats' not fair!!!! Thats' not fair!!! Thats' not fair!!! I want to scream it at the top of my lungs...THATS' NOT FAIR!!!

Oh mama, I wish I could do and be whatever you needed right now. I wish I could turn back the calendar and bring any other outcome to you and your family. My stomach is just so sick for you.

Words of comfort escape my lips as words don't exist to make this kind of pain go away. I can't imagine what you are going through....I am so sorry.

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I am so very sorry for your loss I looked at the link in your signature and saw a happy and loved little boy. My heart breaks for you and your family. Much love to you as you journey through this grief.
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I am so sorry
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I am so sorry mama. I'm shocked and devastated. Words escape me as well. He's such a beautiful boy. I'm here if you need to talk to someone; and please remember that we're here when the darkness in your heart is too much.

: Rest in peace sweet child; and watch over those who love you. You will never be forgotten.

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