Join Date: May 2008
Location: Ontario, Canada
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My uncle died yesterday. He was only about 45 and was a healthy, larger than life, loud man. He electrocuted himself while working in the barn. He has a son who is 25 and a son who is 23. We are a small family and so we are very close, and I saw him at least every Sunday growing up as well as a lot of overnights at their house.
I've never experienced grief in this way before. I'm totally in shock. I haven't really cried, the closest I've come to feeling emotion is feeling VERY angry at the fact that in the last two years I have lost a great grandfather, a grandfather, a great aunt, and this uncle. That's three generations of loss!
I've tried talking about it, I've tried thinking about him, I just can't process it.
I feel like a terrible person because I just don't feel anything. Does this go away? I feel like it should be hitting me hard, but it's not touching me yet.
Please, if you are willing, share with me and help me.