cking, I can't believe it's almost time! How do you feel? How is Josephine? How is night parenting? How is DH? This adjustment is probably going to be hardest on him, at least that was my experience. It seems to be hard on the non-nursing partner to be on their own so much.
RA, I really appreciated how honest your response was, about everything.
Pie Pie and Sihaya, I'm holding you in the light this ttc cycle and your entire pregnancy - pregnancy after loss is so exhausting spiritually.
Zoe, good luck on your move - I can't believe I've witnessed this from wild idea" to fruition
This past month has been THE most challenging of my parenting life. The cliff Notes version is that Fenton has had a cold for the past month, and whlle teh cold symptoms were gradually easing ,(though never disappearing), his behavior and sleep were atrocious. Aggressive/violent behavior, 5 minutes couldn't pass where he wasn't screaming or crying about something. We hadn't had a passably human night's sleep in over a month, including 2 nights where he was waking up every 45 minutes, only to shriek and cry for anywhere from 1 to 3 hours. DH and I were becoming hostile to him, and I was becoming a parent bordering on criminal. I started to nwonder if he had a sinus infection, even though he was missing key symptoms. Everyone treated me like a lunatic who thinks her child can only be a jerk when he's sick - but I just knew something was wrong. Took him to urgent care to rule it out, she said she was sure he did not. With his gut issues, she advised against using antibiotics when we were so uncertain. A week later, I took him to his Ped, who said the same thing - but he gave me an antbx prescription "if I insisted". We didn't use it. Contacted his "gut" doctor in San Fran, he said teh same thing. I've tried everything: Vit C, golden seal, echinacea....everything but netti which....was so not going to happen. Finally on Saturday night we had 1 of the worst nights ever, and I noticed a lot of coughing when he was lying down, and whenever I tried to force him to lie down (Yes, you read that right
), he scrambled to sit up as if he was in pain. The next morning I insisted to my husband that we give him the antx, as I was certain he had a sinus infection and none of my natural remedies were helping after a month. We gave it to him, and within an hour I could see a marked difference. He's back to being himself, and i'm marveling that I had to advocate for my child in that direction - which is as it should be. We regret that this may set his gut healing back months, but I've prayed so hard over him, to please understand my intentions and helps us to heal him. I'm praying that, despite my understanding of the theory behind his digestive issues, that he continues to heal with diligent probiotic use after the antbx are done on Friday (5 days total). We're withn a month of starting to test new foods (he's been on the diet a year now), and I'm trying to just let go that we made the best decision of 2 poor options. So the moral of the story is that we diagnosed a sinus infection that showed nothing at this point but behavior issues. It seems the "pink eye" was not, but instead was sinus inflammation. Poor, poor child.
Reece has been a joy, and last night slept in his crib next to my bed from 7 pm to 6 am. I'm so conflicted about him sleeping in his crib, as I love sleeping with a newborn, it's easier nursing (especially with upcoming surgery), and I believe it really is protective from SIDS. But he sleeps so well in the crib that I can't bear to think that I will create a habit where a desire doesn't exist. I worry that by the time it's difficult t sleep with a baby, they've decided it's a habit. I've been bringing him to bed with me after the first nursing (usually sometime between 1 and 3 am, but today was 6 am). He's also gradually tolerating me eating beans, tomatoes, etc. He's such a happy little guy. He sleeps so well, but not when we're out in public, so that's been challenging.
On me news, i took my nose ring out to change it and can't get it back in
. Trying to decide whether to have it re-done. My ILs hired someone to help me a couple of hours a week, mostly folding laundry and washing pots and pans. And I'm gestating a hair-brained idea that I'll move on once I know whether we're moving due to DH starting a PhD program. I'll share more if I start to work on it.
Sorry for all of the navel -gazing, but I thought some of the details we've dealt with lately could help someone.