I was checking the forums regularly for a while but gave up because everything seemed so quiet. It was nice to get updates from all of you.
, I am sorry for the slow recovery. I am also a first time mom and honestly what you describe doesn't sound THAT different from what I have been working my way around. I don't have a scar and my birthing experience was definitely positive (but hard) but I can relate to how overwhelming it all is. You have no idea what it is going to be like until you are in it, crying newborn in your arms.
While I think it wouldn't hurt to talk to someone about possible PPD, I could easily see myself crying every day if it wasn't for a couple crucial activities I have allowed myself to take time away from my daughter for. My DH is at home all day, so I am not alone. That is huge. I think the way you express your feelings in the first post shows that you are aware of yourself and lucid enough to manage. Your baby getting to 13 pounds is another fact you should be proud of, nice work feeding that baby!
We've had some issues with oversupply/overactive letdown around here. It can be pretty heartbreaking at times, my daughter will get hungry, ask for milk, but wail at the boob and push me away. I have talked to a nurse, my doula and two lactation consultants about it. Slowly getting the hang of it. We had green poops for a while and every day that we don't have them is a blessing.
We also got in a sleep pattern. At first the nights were pretty awful and DH and I were zombies, but things changed once I gave in and started to go to bed with her at 8:30PM (no later than 9:30). It makes it so that I don't get to do much anymore, but while her and I sleep soundly, DH gets a couple hours to clean the house and handle the essentials. And when I have to get up in the night I FEEL RESTED, like I actually slept some.
I have also found that going on a walk with her at least once a day is HUGE. I wear her in an ergo carrier and we are out and about for one to two hours, sometimes three times a day. She sleeps, or watches the world go by peacefully. If we stay home my life becomes the couch and waiting around between feedings. I'd rather be outside. And in "real life" when I am "normal" I am already prone to depression, so getting out of the house really has saved me from PPD, I think.
, do you think an ergo carrier would be too much for your incision to take? If so, a stroller is definitely an option you should feel good about. You taking yourself and your child out into the world is excellent. Remember: YOU ARE DOING A GOOD JOB!