Thanks for the support. I am done working for now, it was a temporary job (13 weeks) so I went back for my last 3 shifts last week and worked 3 full days in a row fairly successfully. I did lose it when one of the nurses in the break room asked me how many weeks I was now. I actually felt better after I cried. She felt bad and said she had a miscarriage before she had her children. I wasn't upset at her. If I were still pregnant I would want to talk about it. It just is so hard telling people. I wish everyone would just tell people but they don't want to because it is personal and sad. But it is so much worse to just burst out crying.
The weird part is that seeing the babies didn't really bother me. That was the normal part. But when parents brought in cute baby clothes I got upset. When I had to walk through the hallway in the hospital where all the pregnant women were waiting for their appointments, I couldn't look at them. I just had to keep walking.
I went in today for a checkup to make sure everything is fine now and it is. But it was hard to go into the office knowing this was supposed to be my pregnancy appointment but it is now my miscarriage follow up appointment. Also my appointment had somehow gotten canceled so I wasn't on their schedule so I had to explain to the receptionist what my appointment was for. I was seen at the same time I would have been if my appointment was still on the schedule but just explaining what it was for was so hard and I started crying.
Once I was done with the appointment and felt like the whole miscarriage experience was officially over, everything passed, blood work looks good, my body appears to be back to normal I checked my voice mail. I had to send in my proof of pregnancy to make sure the care was covered. I had the receptionist fax this in about a month ago, called to make sure it was received but had to leave a message. Never heard from them again so I figured they got it. So I had to have the receptionist fax it again, still wasn't received, the 3rd time she faxed it they finally received it. It was so frustrating, especially because I just thought I had finished the last bit of business from this pregnancy/miscarriage. Also when I told the woman I wasn't pregnant anymore I had a miscarriage, she didn't say anything other then that they still needed proof of pregnancy. No oh I am sorry nothing.
So I guess now it is over, just need to wait for my period. I have been so cranky and mean today.
Melissa- mom to a boy 9/06 and a new boy 11/10 and married to my best friend 7/02