just a quick update: my five and a half year old has recently informed me that if wasn't actually child-led weaning due to the fact that many months ago she took a two week break from nursing when i was bitten by a deer tick and was contemplating temporarily weaning my younger child. a well respected naturopath was concerned that the spirochete bacteria would be passed through breastmilk to my nurslings. she decided for herself at the time that she "didn't want to risk it" even though i kept nursing the baby. apparently she "just got used to not nursing" and isn't really done and was very upset about the whole thing (which was so SAD!). i told her to keep thinking about it and let me know what her thoughts are. i also explained that i had thought it would feel like a celebration, but that i, too, was unexpectedly sad.
when i used to come to this forum and read about mamas who were nursing 5 year olds but saying that they didn't really fully "do" CLWing i never understood. and now i have thought to myself, "oh, well, it maybe wasn't really CLWing (for me - in my view in this situation) because i chose to become pregnant (twice) and i had my limits, very few, but there they were."
but i never imagined that the person telling me that we didn't really wean by following the child's lead would be the child!
most pointedly she told me, "i think that i'm really done needing to nurse, but i just wish i was still a nursling."
i think she may have my disease of change being hard and endings near impossible.
heaven help her, sweet little nursling.
that's probably my last about her in this forum.
thank you again to all the mamas who've shared their stories.
i am beyond grateful.