(Update posted below - this is my original post)
A bit of background - Em is 15 mos old and I work FT, so we nurse whenever he wants when I am home. Even with me offering in the am/pm and on weekends, he only nurses between 2-8 times in a 24 hour period - this includes nursing to bed and usually 1-2 times in the night or early morning in bed.
So - I am sad because for the last 2 nights he has not wanted to nurse to sleep. There have been occasional nights in the past when he would have a nice long nurse and then not fall asleep on the boob (then he'd go to sleep with DP singing/rocking, etc.), but this was different.
Last night he popped off after just a few minutes and said "bed" and pointed. I said "are you sure? you are all done nursing?" and he said & waved "bye-bye" to my boob and pulled my shirt down over it.
So, I followed his lead and put him in bed. Then tonight he just kept thrashing around, asking to get down and walk, I tried in the chair, in the bed, even with him standing up next to me and he just kept popping off and wanting to do other things, and finally walked over to his bed and said "bed." Without ever really getting a real nurse in. Both nights I have gotten all teary and worried with what-ifs? (My only consolation was that today was one of the days when I pick him up from childcare/get off work earlier, so he had asked to nurse when we got home and that went normally.)
I am freaking out a bit that he could be on the path to weaning when I never considered that to even be a remote possibility before 2 yrs ... I was hoping to eventually get pg (I’m not now) and tandem and all that.... If he drops the nursing to bed, there will be at least 2 nights a week when I get home from work late enough that he won't get to nurse that evening at all, and if I only nurse him once in 24 hours, could my milk dry up?
I know I could be overreacting (also maybe my tears=PMS), but my questions/concerns are:
- Is this the beginning of a nursing strike? He's never had one before, so I don't know what it looks like
- Could it be because he just started walking this weekend? Anybody else have this?
- If it is a strike, what do I do?
- Could his loss of interest indicate my supply has dropped too much already (I stopped pumping a little over a month ago)? It does take a while for the let-down now; maybe he doesn't want to wait?? Both times were also on the boob that has always made less, so could it dry up in one and not the other?
Please help me feel like this isn't the beginning of the end...