My almost 3.5 year old daughter has always been a frequent nurser. She LOVES the boobs. I've always felt they were my best "tool in the toolbox" and I have cherished our nursing time.
In my second trimester, much to my dismay, I had no choice but to night wean due to immense pain. We still nursed to sleep and to wake (when the light came up as our signal) and I bit my lip a lot. I am also about a size H right now (used to be a D!), and nursing in bed is painful. It is much less painful to nurse in the rocking chair - when I had a lap. Anyway, the night weaning went surprising well, back then.
Now the baby can come any day and I am big and uncomfortable. The last few weeks dd has been just obsessive about nursing. I try to explain to her that the boobs hurt, my back hurts, etc., etc., but she just is not giving up. "Can I have boobie NOW?" "I need boob!!!" I want it!!!" Every 30 seconds! She is crying and whining for it all day and night. I've been nursing her in the rocking chair as much as I can, but my back and hips are starting to kill me - not the shape I want to be in for the birth! I should add that she also drinks rice milk from a bottle (from either me or daddy), but lately she mostly wants the boob.
My approach to breastfeeding has generally to take things one day at a time, and to wait for the "phases" she goes through to change. But with the whole dynamic of the baby coming (and of course, getting first priority on the boob) and my bodily discomfort, and my "mourning" the end of my intimate solo relationship with my daughter -- I am just so worn out -- physically and emotionally. I do think she has somewhat of a grasp on the fact that the baby will need booby first, but we'll see how that actually plays out.
I'm just venting and looking for hugs. I don't know what I could possibly do differently. I feel like my 3 year old has a genuine need to nurse, and I love that time with her too. There are so many changes that are going to occur in our household - I hate to deny her the thing that brings her the most comfort. But... I need my sanity and physical health too.