this is quick, I'm waiting for my DH to get home to go to the ER. Basically, I'm 33 weeks pregnant and having PTL, my MW put me on bedrest yesterday, but its gotten worse, so shes sending me in to the hospital. I know that you aren't supposed to nurse on bedrest, but I still did 3-4 times yesterday, I was kinda hoping to just keep it to 2-3 times a day and keep it secret, but now that I'm going in, she flat out told me I'm not allowed to nurse at all. My heart is just broken. I seriously completely lost it on the phone when she said that. My DD is only 21 months old and nurses at least 5-8 times a day. Theres no milk there, but she REALLY needs the comfort. We are fully CLWers, she still nurses in the middle of the night and everything, on demand.
I don't even know what to do, what do I do? I mean, if I'm in the hospital I can't even secretly nurse her. I won't even be with her at night if they make me stay there. I know her dad can keep her busy during the day, she has gone all day without nursing when we go to say, the zoo, where shes too busy running around, but she nurses at night without fail no matter what.
Is there anything I can do to make this easier on her? Do you think she'll go back to nursing when I have DD2? I feel so much guilt right now. I don't want to take nursing away from her, she is just a baby. I feel like she is going to be permenantly damaged from this. traumatized, I guess.
I don't even know how/if I'm going to check this after I leave, but maybe I'll have DH come read it for any suggestions.
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