Thank you for your post, I just wanted to make it clear that I completley realize how much computer time I am spending, and I am not in denial about that at all. At this point, going outside in the backyard is more work than its worth. Everytime I try to "get out of the house" I regret it. My body hurts, I am hot, whatever. It talkes me all day sometimes, just to feel enough energy to get the kids dressed, and get myself dressed, etc. I am not sure why people think that getting out of the house is a cure for depression. ??? I have somehow managed to keep eating and feeding my kids which is about all I can do at the moment.
I have made tons of friends but with every single one of those relationships, I am sole contact. They do not call me, If I dont call them, I just dont talk to them! And with depression, it is very challenging to be in charge of everything. I can't clean my house, do my dishes, feed my family, even get dressed everyday, etc. AND at the same time, try and keep relationships going with people who are too busy to put in an effort. So I quit trying. They arent interested, and its ok with me!
We are trying to go to the park daily, although last time I went I hurt my belly dealing with a toddler tantrum and I could hardly make it to the car! It makes me not want to go! But I am still trying for the sake of my kids to go everyday. (If its not too hot out.
Thanks for the advice, but I dont know if you understand that its not particularly helpful to get out there all the time, not for someone with depression. I may have sheltered myself, but its because I cant keep my kids safe in public anymore. When we go to a store, the toddler is running one way and the 4 yr old goes the other way, I promised I wouldnt do that anymore when one of them almost got hit by a car. I cant move fast enough at 7 m pregnant to take them anyplace safely. (The park is a strech because its not far from the road.)