I have not yet seen my midwife. there have been issues with insurance and also issues because her prices have gone up and i'm not sure that i want to pay as much as she is asking....but that is another story...the point is i haven't been in and heard a heartbeat or anything like that. so i still haven't told anyone and i'm like 12 weeks now. i just have this paranoia that i'm not really pregnant. i had a miscarriage last year at 7 weeks. i know that at the 12 week point i probably would have miscarried if i was going to, but my sister in law didn't find out she had a blighted ovum until around 12 weeks. i also heard from lifetime movies that there are types of cancer that can give you a positive pregnancy test, so my irrational self is like "maybe you aren't pregnant and you just have cancer." ofcourse i have all the symptoms of being pregnant so that is stupid. then i have heard other people talk about chemical pregnancies, i don't know what that is but i assume it means having the symptoms but no baby. so is anyone else still unsure, not convinced, apprehensive, etc? i know most everyone has already been to a practioner and probably has heard/seen heartbeat. is it illogical for me to think like i am? i was pretty confident throughout my first pregnancy, but i think that the second pregnancy and misscariage has made me pessimistic and unsure about what is going on in my body.