I am not sure what your concerns are, but being a new mom can be really scary and overwhelming. All of a sudden you are responsible for another life. You are low on sleep and sanity, and it takes a toll on how you feel about your own kids. I am sure you are a great mother, just that fact that you took the time to reach out on this site says that about you. But it also sounds like you may need some extra help. If you are struggling to feel love for your children, you may be depressed which is very common after having a baby. Speak to your doctor about the things you are feeling. Also, find people who can help you bear some of the burden right now until you can get yourself feeling better and in a better place.