I'm just glad to be getting closer to the point of being able to freak out in a good, excited way about meeting my babes!!! Last week, I was freaked out about the possibility of having to deliver too early - but as things are looking better and better, and 36 weeks gets closer and closer (12 more days...) I'm getting ready to be able to be both totally overwhelmed and gloriously happy about bringing my babes home whenever they choose to "relocate". <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wink1.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wink1">
Yes.. I am def overjoyed/overwelmed right now<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"><br>
today my chiro said "wow, I've never felt a sacrum float around so much!"<br>
She figured I could give birth any moment!<br><br>
Spent a good part of today again outside working... I think at this point it's best for me to stay as close to the Earth as possible.. it seems to take the edge off the freaking out.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment">
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<div style="font-style:italic;">I'm just glad to be getting closer to the point of being able to freak out in a good, excited way about meeting my babes!!!</div>
I hear ya on that one, for sure. For some reason, I seem to have been living in absolute fear of preterm labor or early babies for the last few months. Now that that fear is coming to an end, I'm panicking a bit because it's a whole different kind of freaking out. Little things... We put the two car seats in the van yesterday, and now every time I look at them I get nervous. I think about childbirth, and I get nervous. I really just need to take some quiet, meditative time to do a few visualizations, take some prayer time, stuff like that.
I've been eyeing the bassinet like it's going to bite me since we set it up on Monday. I feel like getting everything together (and we finally did!) just made it too real. Now I'm alternating between "OMG It could be any second now!" and "Ugh, I'm going to end up going to 42 weeks, I just know it"<br><br>
I kind of wish I was one of those people who gets an early labour, but with dd there were no signs, and then my water just broke and I was in hard labour, so I don't get any warm up time which kind of freaks me out a little because I could be anywhere if it happens like that again. Last time I was lucky enough that it was in the middle of the night and I was home. But we have all our homebirth stuff, and I've made it past 37 weeks so atleast if I am home I don't have to worry about trying to get to the hospital!<br><br>
I'm actually not concerned about labour, it hurts like a mother but I can handle it. It's the 18+ years that follow that I'm concerned about <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol">
Aw, two new carseats in the van. How cute!!!!! And I wish I was going to a mountain in three days, pregnant or not! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"> We just got back from our land (~25 minutes from our house in town) and while we love it, it's getting pretty frustrating going out there. We just want to LIVE THERE ALREADY.<br><br>
I'm ready. Mentally. For a baby. I don't have all the material stuff I want yet, but it's coming and you know, none of it is like life-threatening. My baby isn't going to die without a wool diaper cover. I'm also not really prepared for the fight I'm going to feel like fighting at the hospital. I think I'm OK with the idea of labor in general - hope to have a reasonable warm-up but overall fast/easy labor/birth. It's just having to deal with hospital crap I am in denial over.
Ahhhh... I'm just glad I'm not the only one freaking just a little bit!<br><br>
I think two other factors about the birth that are freaking me out (in addition to the fact that it's twins):<br><br>
1) My last birth was supposed to be my first homebirth. I had to transport. So, this is going to be my first homebirth.<br>
2) My transport turned into a cesarean, so this is also my first VBAC.<br><br>
I did all the research on it and really feel we're doing the right things and all, but I guess it's all stuff I hadn't really allowed myself to feel or mull over while I was so busy worrying about preterm labor.
Woohoo! So happy that its so close for you! I hope that your ride up to the moutains isn't too rough ( I get bad contractions on the road, DH has to do all driving for now).<br>
I was calm last night when DH was the one freaking but then I thought well I have to get some kind of birth supplies if I'm gonna stay home.We went to the store tonight and now the things are sitting there looking at me.I am actually gonna do it.It is kinda nervous making to know that we are at the anytime point.