First I should probably tell you that that is ME on the video. I was not suicidal or homicidal before taking Zoloft or after withdrawal. The first time anything out of the ordinary happened, I had been taking Zoloft for 3 days and I had a hallucination. Every time the dose went up, the symptoms got worse.
The news story mentions hallucinations but I only had those the first few days of taking Zoloft. My mom actually emailed the reporter after she came to our house and talked about me having hallucinations throughout but that is inaccurate. I think that is how it got into the story though. I actually had visualizations, not hallucinations, for months. A hallucination is when you literally see or hear something. I did not have those for very long. I had thoughts and fears and images in my mind of me doing things I didn't want to do.
No, I didn't have anything going on to explain the thoughts that happened when I was taking Zoloft, other than one panic attack before I got the prescription, which happened when my son was 4 days old, but never recurred after. I had anxiety because my 3 day old baby nearly choked to death on formula at Children's Hospital. He had to be aspirated with tubes because when he tried to vomit the disgusting leftover formula, it got stuck and he was literally turning red, purple, blue as they got there to save his life. They admitted him overnight.
I was worried about the baby and didn't want others to take over for me. I was vigilant. I slept with my hand on his tummy in the bassinet. The nurse was recommending I let others bottle feed him so I could rest and when I coudln't sleep because I wanted to listen to make sure he wasn't going to choke from the disgusting formula, that was "too anxious." The mere fact that I didn't want him to leave my bedroom in the middle of the night to be held by my MIL was "evidence" that I was overanxious. I took the drugs because a home health nurse thought I was too anxious and set up the appt. for me to see my ob. I started only 6 days after birth. By that time my blood pressure was high and I was really freaking out about the baby getting hurt somehow, and that part I believe was caused by the reaction to everyone else's criticism, having taken an infant CPR class that made me worry about all the possible ways he could be injured or killed, combined with hyperthyroidism. (Later I found out that all along I had had hyperthyroidism as well.)
I don't know how related it was that I had a very unsatisfying and highly drugged up hospital birth. I have been reading the continuum concept and one of the things it said is that "PPD" is a function of "civilized" societies that may be caused when the mother is not able to imprint the baby onto her for bonding at birth. The explanation is that in humans the mother has to bond with the baby because if only the baby imprints the mother, it wouldn't even matter because the baby cannot cling to mommy and follow her around. The medication of births tends to deprive us of the normal hormonal reaction to birth. It also goes on to say that in primitive societies the normal reaction when there is no baby is mourning, because that meant the baby was stillborn. Very interesting theory.
Andrea Yates was on many drugs for years and they did not help her. Two days before she killed her children they cut her dose of Effexor from a clincally unsafe 450 mg to 300 mg. As you wrote, withdrawal is scary! To this day she remains drugged up and locked up and these drugs are still unable to help her get any better.
As for the energy theory, that one is not true. The drugs can cause the thoughts in the first place, not just make you energetic enough to act on them. A Glaxo Smith Kline study that was just released revealed that patients taking Paxil are more than 6 times as likely to become suicidal as those taking placebo.
Patients who are suicidal to begin with are excluded from the studies.
In addition, the Mayo Clinic recently confirmed what Ann Blake Tracy wrote in her book years ago - these psychotropic drugs can cause you to go into a sleep walk state and act out your nightmares. The sleeping meds do that too. It's called "REM Sleep Behavior Disorder" by mainstream doctors, and by the rest of us it is known as REM Sleep deprivation. When you can't get REM sleep your body forces you into extended periods of wakeful sleep to try to compensate during awake periods.
People who have been prescribed these drugs for things like migraines, bladder infections, test anxiety, etc. have committed murders and suicides.
These drugs are very dangerous. I encourage you to make the right decision for you though.
You may be interested in reading my story on my website
http://chaada.org/smf/index.php?topic=15.0
Please also read about serotonin syndrome
http://uuhsc.utah.edu/poison/healthpros/utox/Vol4_No4.pdf#search='serotonin%20syndrome'
And if you want natural healing, please see
http://www.doctoryourself.com/
And check out
www.drugawareness.org