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<p>For the past few days I've been getting really worried/anxious at night after the kids go to bed. Usually this is my time to relax and talk to hubby but I can't hardly even seem to think right. I'm finding myself overcome with fears and stress. I keep worrying about my kids; thinking something is wrong with them, worrying that they are getting sick etc. I feel pretty normal during the day. I keep myself busy and play with my kids and don't have any stress really. But once it's quiet I start freaking out inside. My hearts seems to beat faster and I feel like I need to scream or run away like the fight or flight response is kicking in. I'm switching back and forth between wine and melatonin to help me get to sleep (don't want to build up a tolerance to either) so that part isn't bad, it's just when I'm supposed to be spending time with my husband that I get really anxious. Does anyone else have this after m/c? Fears that people are just going to die, or that something else awful will happen? Bad feelings in the pit of your stomach that you can't pinpoint? An inability to figure out what it is that you are even thinking/scared of?</p>
 

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<p>I had this really bad after Emeric. It was terrible at night and I had severe anxiety in crowded public places like church, walmart, etc. Sometimes it would get so bad I couldn't stand or drive. At night my mind would just go 100 miles a min. It probably lasted terrible for 6wks and then continued but not as bad for another 6 wks. I have had it a little this time but not like with Emeric. Hang in there it will pass. I find that sleeping with emerics blanket helps me sleep. My therapist also suggested bennadryl although I haven't tried it yet.</p>
 

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<div class="quote-block">Originally Posted by <strong>KristaDJ</strong> <a href="/community/forum/thread/1284226/anxiety-at-night#post_16101279"><img alt="View Post" class="inlineimg" src="/community/img/forum/go_quote.gif" style="border:0px solid;"></a><br><br><p>Does anyone else have this after m/c? Fears that people are just going to die, or that something else awful will happen? Bad feelings in the pit of your stomach that you can't pinpoint? An inability to figure out what it is that you are even thinking/scared of?</p>
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<p>Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.</p>
<p>All of these things, I also had terrible nightmares (for months), and would wake up terrified for no reason. After my first loss, I was also afraid of the dark for a long while, and had to buy a night light.</p>
<p>I agree with Nicole, that it is relatively normal, but it doesn't mean that it can't or shouldn't be treated. </p>
<p>There are medications, but therapy is really helpful. My therapist explained that these types of things are your subconscious trying to make sense of trauma, and therapy can help you identify triggers, as well as give you skills to work through the anxiety.<br>
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<p>Yes. I am afraid that my early losses were merely to prepare me for one of my children dying, or for something else awful. It's mental torture. And I think it happens at night just because like you said we're busy and preoccupied during the day. <span><img alt="hug.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug.gif"></span></p>
 

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<p>i would second the counceling suggestion. It has helped me tons.</p>
 

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<p><span><img alt="hug2.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug2.gif"></span> I haven't had it (yet) with this one but have had anxiety attacks just as you describe at other times in my life in response to different situations and yes, almost always at night. I agree that counseling helped and just passage of time. But also, knowing what I know now about adrenal issues there's a couple of other things that could help if you wanted to try.</p>
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<p>Restorative or Yin yoga was really great for me to get the adrenal responses under control, especially when I was doing it regularly and often at night. I'd get a class loaded and ready and would go straight to it when DD went down. This isn't like a workout at all (I'm not an "exerciser"). It's laying there in really relaxing poses for a while and breathing deeply, calming your system. There's a wonderful website that has unlimited classes of all sorts for like $9 a month. Then I'd go hang out with DH. Certain poses especially like legs up the wall are really good for relaxing and regulating that fight or flight feeling. This article is about adrenal fatigue, but the poses he talks about are good for that out of control adrenal rush you describe: <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/603" target="_blank">http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/603</a></p>
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<p>Also have you been having any caffeine or chocolate or B vitamins, especially later in the day? Not that it has anything to do with what's obviously triggering you, but since they pump up the adrenal system it could exacerbate the anxiety feeling.</p>
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<p>I'll write more later if I think of more. But big hugs and I hope you're feeling better soon!</p>
 

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<p>Thanks ladies!<br>
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<div class="quote-block">Originally Posted by <strong>mom-to-jj</strong> <a href="/community/forum/thread/1284226/anxiety-at-night#post_16101719"><img alt="View Post" class="inlineimg" src="/community/img/forum/go_quote.gif" style="border:0px solid;"></a><br><br><p>Yes. I am afraid that my early losses were merely to prepare me for one of my children dying, or for something else awful. It's mental torture. And I think it happens at night just because like you said we're busy and preoccupied during the day. <span><img alt="hug.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug.gif"></span></p>
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<p>It makes me feel better just to know that this is normal. If I could afford counseling I would do it in a heartbeat; after what I've been through I know I need it. I am stuck right now, though. A glass of wine takes it away entirely and helps me to open up to hubby more instead of holding back my feelings so I have that as a last resort. I do need to find something to deal with it beside that and I'll look into the Yin Yoga.</p>
<p>No caffeine at all in my diet and chocolate is extremely rare. I take B's but I only take them in the morning. I think it's just the grief getting to me. I have had this before when I was young and we had a traumatic RV fire..... it was much worse than this.</p>
<p>I'm going to talk to my husband more; he will listen and wants to talk to me. I just always try to push the "bad stuff" away and try to make our time enjoyable. I need to let go of that and just deal with what is happening.</p>
 

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<p>there are organizations like catholic family services that provide counseling on a sliding scale. Mine is covered by insurance and is free but dh was paying $10 an hour for a while back. If i was going the wine route I would spend way more than $10 a wk on wine, that's why I don't drink. lol</p>
 

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<p>We literally have nothing extra at all right now. Brian lost his job when I miscarried Benjamin and has been working on his own since. He does landscaping/handyman work and it really slows down in the winter. We are so much happier overall with his job than before but we just can't afford another expense.</p>
<p>I buy a great big gallon of cheap burgundy for about $15 and it lasts for weeks. I drink one glass a few times a week. I used drugs and alcohol to cope with depression as a teen and it's not something I want to get back into. The wine is for my heart, that's why I drink nasty red. After a m/c when my hormones crash I get chest pains and tachycardia. It goes away if I use progesterone cream but that stops my bleeding and stops ovulation which is the only thing that will make my hormones normal again...... so I just manage it with wine and motherwort until I O and things get right. There is just so much that comes with this; all the money issues compounded by my losses (each one costing us hundreds in time off work and special things I need), my physical issues after a m/c and now anxiety..... when will this ever end?</p>
 

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<p>I've had this too.  For me, it's mainly when I'm away from my boyfriend, especially at work.  At work I have lots of time to sit and think, and I get very anxious and panicky.  Another time it hits me is when I go to bed and my boyfriend stays up late.  So basically, when I'm by myself.  When I'm around my kids or BF, i can keep my mind occupied, and it's not so bad.  I think it's normal when you're grieving.  I've been (back) on antidepressants, but it's not helping.  Thinking about trying counselling again. </p>
 
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