I know I can't be alone. I've had 2 m/c's and finally got and stayed pg with my son with the help of fertility meds. I found out I was pregnant yesterday (w/o fertility meds, in fact it was a surprise, b/c I am nursing, and my LP was only 4-5 days long) with 3 + hpts and had my hcg and progesterone drawn. My hcg is 48 and my prog is 13.2, both are on the lower side. I will get a repeat hcg tomorrow, and am really hoping that it has doubled since my last draw. I'm scared to death of another m/c. It seems that I have never been able to sustain a pregnancy without fertility meds. I want to be happy, but I'm so nervous about another m/c. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> I thought it would be a nice christmas surprise to tell our families, but now I'm afraid I will end up having to deal with an impending m/c during the holidays instead (my last m/c happened during the new yrs holiday a few yrs ago, and I was depressed for months afterwards). Anyone else feeling like this?