[mags]

I know I can't be alone. I've had 2 m/c's and finally got and stayed pg with my son with the help of fertility meds. I found out I was pregnant yesterday (w/o fertility meds, in fact it was a surprise, b/c I am nursing, and my LP was only 4-5 days long) with 3 + hpts and had my hcg and progesterone drawn. My hcg is 48 and my prog is 13.2, both are on the lower side. I will get a repeat hcg tomorrow, and am really hoping that it has doubled since my last draw. I'm scared to death of another m/c. It seems that I have never been able to sustain a pregnancy without fertility meds. I want to be happy, but I'm so nervous about another m/c.

I thought it would be a nice christmas surprise to tell our families, but now I'm afraid I will end up having to deal with an impending m/c during the holidays instead (my last m/c happened during the new yrs holiday a few yrs ago, and I was depressed for months afterwards). Anyone else feeling like this?

 

[fiddledebi]

Yes, I am, even with very little reason to worry. I spotted a lot with my dd, and now, I just noticed very pale spotting yesterday and today. No cramps, no real blood, but still -- I'm nervous. Fortunately (???) my asthma is really bad and my midwife wanted to see me today (one week after my first appointment) to see how my air flow is, so I get to talk with her and maybe nudge her for a try with the doppler or an early vaginal US.

I know it's silly to worry --- but here I am doing it anyway!

 

[Fisherb]

I am, although I don't have reason to be. I even promised myself that I wouldn't freak out this time. What that's meant for me is basically living in denial... I haven't even called the m/w yet. We've tried our doppler (I own one) once at 7.5 weeks with no luck -- so that didn't help.

And, want to hear my vent? We told all of our parents about the pregnancy shortly after we tested. My IL's put it in their Christmas letter to over 200 people, after we specifically told them that we are only telling them, and this isn't public yet. (I mean, isn't that a soft way to say KEEP THE SECRET!) I should also add that this letter was not sent to us, it's my parents that called me and read it to me.

Anyway, just letting you know that I'm nervous, too, and I don't have nearly as much reason to be as you gals do. Group Hug!

 

[mags]

Fiddle-

I hope you get that u/s when you see your mw! I kwym, I also spotted a lot on and off with my last pregnancy and was put on bedrest at one pt. Luckily, it was only for a few days, I was having contractions and was admitted to the ob unit for monitoring and meds, they said I might have been dehydrated, so this time I have been guzzling water like no tomorrow, asnd of course running to the bathroom a lot too! Let us know if you get the u/s, and what your mw says.

Barb-

Ooooh, I would PO'd too about the in law's letter. I have major mil issues, so I think they knew you would be upset, if they did not send you a letter! I am thinking about telling our families, however I am going to tell them not to tel anyone else yet. They all know I have had m/c's before, so hopefully they will listen.

 

[rainbowmoon]

first I just want to say congrats!

definitly with you mamas on this one. I don't have any reason to worry as far as I know, but still nervous. i was like this with ds too (even more so as I had some spotting) and it's very emotional.

fisherb sorry about you inlaws. i'm sure they had the best of intentions and are just really excited for you...but still

 

[fiddledebi]

Hi all -- back from the midwife -- she said what I thought she would, which is "nothing to worry about, it's probably left over from last week's pap smear." I'll have a try with the doppler in a month, and she said if we're not lucky and don't hear the hb then, she'll send me for an ultrasound at that point.

However, I love this midwife so much that just seeing her made me feel better.

 

[~Megan~]

I had a m/c 2 cycles ago and its in the back of my mind it could happen again. Last time it was really early, I only knew conclusively for a day before the bleeding happened (I suspected it but the blood test didn't come back until the day before I started bleeding).

 

[mags]

Fiddle- I'm so happy to hear that the appt went smoothly and your MW feels positive about everything.

Megan- {{HUGS}} on your last m/c. Hope this pregnancy is nice and boring for you.

 

[isismama]

I'm very scared of having a miscarriage. After having an boring pregnancy with my first child (who's three yrs old now) I had two miscarriages, one at 12 weeks and one at 5 weeks. I am now five weeks pregnant (due Aug 23) and really worried about another miscarriage.

I'm finding it hard to feel optimistic.

 

[hadleys_mom]

I too am a little nervous about a miscarriage after having one with my first pregnancy. I told myself this time I wasn't going to worry and just let things take their course, but as each day comes and goes and I have few or no symptoms of being pregnant, I am getting more nervous. With my DD I remember being fall down exhausted and this time my energy is really good. But then again, I'm not working full time and can afford to take naps with her each day. Maybe I would be exhausted if I didn't sleep for 4 hours during the day! My DH and I are so excited about this baby, I am really hoping that everything is alright.

I hope that everyone's concerns turn out to be nothing and we all have happy long pregnancies.

 

[starlite]

I have a 2.5 year old ds. We have since had 3 m/c's trying for another child. The first 2 were really early m/c's but the last one was lost at 11+ weeks and died in the womb at 9 weeks gestational age. Couldn't figure out what happened! Devasting. Then I stopped menstruating for about 6 months and was told I was not ovulating. While waiting for a period I found out I am now 9 weeks pregnant and you betcha I'm nervous! I had spotting at week 5, am in a 'high risk' bracket because of previous miscarriages(m/c's) and have been told this means a 'threatened m/c' but I got good vibes even if I am scared. Gotta stay postive - KWIM? To the OP I feel the pain. I think it would be harder for you as your first pregnancy ended in loss leaving you childless till the next try. I am grateful that my ds was around to cheer me up and as the saying goes "If you've done it once, you can do it again" (Oh gosh! A 'Divynals' moment ... what a scary flash back - am I old or what???)
Don't worry too much cos whatever will be will be. It's kind of out of our hands if you get my meaning.

 

[mags]

Ladies, I do hope that all of us go one to have healthy, normal pregnancies this time around. As for my labwork today. Forget it. We are under blizzard conditions, the doc's offices are closed (we have like 3 ft of snow), the lab I am supposed to go to is closed too, I called the hospital lab, they said they cannot do my labs w/o the doc's order (which the satellite lab has, but nobody is there), and they do not know how long they will even stay open, since they are so short staffed. UGH! I am hosting my family starting tomorrow for the holiday wknd, I am going to be a ball of nerves. I had hoped to find out my results by today, and thought it would give me some reassurance. Instead, my labs are not completely screwed up, b/c the hcg levels have to be taken 48 hrs apart to see if there is doubling, or else it's no good with just one #, kwim? So, this means that I will have to start over next wk, call and try to get another order, get my hcg/prog drawn and then get another hcg drawn 48 hrs later! Plus, with new yr's eve, the offices and labs will be closed once again.

 

[Kerrie]

Yeah, I'm scared. Actually, terrified would be a better way of putting it. I had a m/c this past summer. I found out at my 10 wk appt that there was no baby in my womb but didn't m/c until almost 13 wks. I'm gong in for an u/s on monday. I really want to do this PG as intervention free as possible but for my mental health I really need to find out if there is a babe or not and can try to move on from there.