So I haven't posted on here much, mainly because of my children and my dh(they always decide they need attention as soon as I get on the computer), but I am going insane. I'm only at 12 weeks (due at the end of December) and I've been on bedrest for the past week! I started having bleeding a week ago Friday, and it was bright red gushes. I had called my shadow care OB who said it sounded like the placenta detaching a slight bit, and to take it easy, and then went into see her on Monday. During the u/s, they found that I had been carrying twins (one was no longer viable) and that I had a subchorionic hematoma! I was put on strict bedrest (HAH - I've got a 11 yo, a 3 yo and a 15 mo). We got emergency daycare for the week and I've tried my best to not do much but unfortunately I've had bleeding almost every night since then. I've got another appt on Monday to check the size of the hematoma and I'm going crazy. I can't be on bedrest for weeks at a time. First of all, daycare is way too spendy for us, and secondly, our house is falling down around my ears. My DH works long hours at a very physical job and barely has the energy to eat, let alone clean the house, do the laundry, go grocery shopping, take care of the kids, etc. So I guess I just needed to whine a bit. I'm not sure what we are going to do if the hematoma hasn't shrunk. I can't be on bedrest any longer, but I also can't see not doing everything I can to save my little one. Grrr.... I've read the stories about everything turning out fine, and I've read the stories about everything not being okay, and I'm going insane. I know there is never any guarantee in life, but I wish I could get through just one pregnancy without having massive problems (my kidneys have had massive difficulties in past pregnancies). Okay, all done whining, thanks so much for listening!