[fennelseed]

I absolutely love nursing and did not wean my daughter until she was a little over three years old. I now have a three week old son and intend on nursing him just as long, if that is what he wants.

I'm wondering if others have experienced this: Often, after he latches, I feel a rush of the blues. I sometimes find tears running down my cheeks. At the same time I'm looking at him and am so full of love. So it's nothing that would ever make me want to stop nursing, and it's not something that interferes with my loving feelings for my child. But it is an inexplicable feeling of sadness! I don't really feel it at any other time.

It might be because I am finally sitting down quietly. Or, could it be related to breastfeeding triggering hormones? There is nothing I really think needs to be done about it, I'm just curious if others have felt this and what they think causes it?

 

[MommyofHero]

ah, hormones.
this happened to me too, and unfortunately it didn't pass completely until my baby was 3 months old. (3 months PP is typically when your breastmilk levels out completely and the hormone rushes subside.)
just remember that hormone fluctuations all part of the mothering process and try to pay attention to the specific emotions that are flowing over you as you nurse. i remember feeling overwhelmed at the perfection and beauty of motherhood and nursing and i would start crying-- i felt sad, but it was a profound, humbling kind of sadness. i don't know if that makes any sense to you, but just try to view every emotion you feel as you are bonding with your son as beautiful-- because it is beautiful!! even if it makes you cry!
*hugs*

 

[fennelseed]

that's such a lovely way of putting it, thank you!