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I wrote this for our new little one and decided to post it here to share our story.<br><br>
Carolina<br>
We waited for you for 39 weeks and 6 days loving the moments that you kicked and moved, loving the idea that you were growing and would soon join us on the outside. We waited, knowing that you would bring your own personality to our family. And now as I sit here with you on day 7 of your life I realize how much you have already changed our family. Our little stranger in our house, we love you so and still we wait to see who you are and what you will do.<br><br>
Maya has been patient with you she loves your little head and strokes your soft hair over and over, she counts your fingers and toes and helps bathe, change and care for you. She is amazing with you and the adjustment she is going through. I look at my two girls as you cuddle together in bed in the morning and know that you two will have challenges with eachother, but I know that through it all you will be so important to one another and I can’t wait to see how your relationship grows and changes.<br><br>
Daddy is much more comfortable with you as a brand new tiny person, he holds you and hums to you and you have special time with him while I get Maya to bed. These moments are so important to him and you are forming your own special bond with him. No longer are you just mine, I remember the feel of your foot under my rib, the way your head turned, the hiccups on my lower belly and I cherish them. You were mine then, and while we waited for you I knew that once you were out you were no longer just my little secret.<br><br>
Your birthday started like many other days. Maya I and went to the chiropractor, where she went through her normal ritual of getting water, playing with the toys there waiting for my adjustment getting a sticker then a lollypop then declaring it was time to leave. I started feeling contractions shortly after the appointment but was hesitant to say that this was it, you had been practicing for your birthday for about a week and I had gotten used to the tightening and releasing of my belly.<br><br>
We went to your Mimi’s house for lunch as we do often and waited for a while to go for a walk. Maya went in the wagon and I felt the tightening and releasing over and over. After our walk we went back and I watched the clock for a while and realized that the contractions were about every 12-15 minutes. I still wasn’t convinced that you were coming although I was hoping to see you soon. Maya and I went home for a nap and I got a few things ready to go to the hospital just in case this was the day.<br><br>
Around five-thirty the contractions were coming about every 5-8 minutes and I called daddy to let him know that I thought you were coming today. He picked up a pizza and was very nervous when he got home, running around and not able to just enjoy the experience. I called Dr. L around 6:45 and told her we thought it might be time to go to the hospital. The contractions were still pretty mild but they were coming every 3-5 minutes now and I wanted to have time to get settled into our birthing quarters before you came.<br><br>
Gramps came to pick up Maya. I told her she would be spending the night at their house and she asked if we were going to the hospital. I said yes and she said “ok let I go get my bag, gramps will be here any minute” I was so impressed with her preparedness and willingness to do her part. But I cried when she left, we had never been away from her for a night and it was sad to have reached such a big milestone.<br><br>
I quickly changed gears though and thought about you and what you would look like, how you would smell, what you would sound like, and wanted so badly to find a fast forward button on this labor to get to that moment.<br><br>
We arrived at the hospital and went through the admitting process, it felt like it took forever as I was wanting to get settled and focus on the huge task we were about to accomplish. We went upstairs and were put into room 8. A resident came in and checked me and said I was at 4-5 cm and was 75% effaced, I knew we still had a long way to go but was proud of us for reaching that point.<br><br>
The next hour and forty minutes were the worst part of your birthday. I had to lay in bed with monitors around my belly, one to check your heartbeat and another to measure the strength of the contractions. You were calm and your heartbeat was steady for most of this time. They wanted to make sure you would react well to the contractions, which is why we were stuck in bed for so long. I refused the IV feeling that you and I would manage just fine on our own. I trusted you to come and I trusted myself enough to know that I would help you.<br><br>
We were the only ones who truly went through this, you and I. It was our last moments of being a single unit and we were doing everything in harmony to make the most of it. The last 40 weeks had all been building up to these moments.<br><br>
After Dr. L came she checked me again and I had made it all the way to 7 cm and was 90% effaced. I was so pleased as we had been in bed and not able to use gravity to our advantage, you proved to be a strong and determined little person even then.<br><br>
The monitors were taken off and I requested the birth ball. The contractions were getting stronger and stronger and I allowed each one to come, surrendering to it allowing it to take over me body knowing that with each one I was closer to holding you. The rhythmic bouncing made a squeaking noise on the hardwood floors and I stared out the window during contractions, focusing on a building across the street that had many different colored lights.<br><br>
In between contractions I was able to talk to daddy and Mimi and wait for the next one to come. Daddy was there in front of me I leaned on him while bouncing and made deep moaning sounds, trying to relax as much as I could and allow myself to open up. The three of us were left in peace during this time. I was thankful to have time without people rushing in and out.<br><br>
We moved the ball over towards the bed so they could do intermittent monitoring on you and me. Daddy sat on the bed and I put my head in his lap during contractions while Mimi rubbed and applied pressure to my back. Bouncing, bouncing, bouncing.<br><br>
Dr. L came back and asked if I wanted to be checked again. I was anxious to know how much longer we had, so I agreed. She said was now 9cm and 90% effaced and said it wouldn’t be long now. I stayed in bed sitting up and leaning forward on daddy for a while the contractions were so strong and powerful that in between all I could so was prepare for the next rush and savor the time.<br><br>
The nurse came in and readied the room for your arrival, and I was aware with this flurry of activity that you were getting closer and closer.<br><br>
I started to feel like I needed to push so the nurse went to get Dr. L, she said I was still 9cm and had a small lip left on my cervix, she asked if I wanted her to push it aside and I agreed, the urge was more than I was able to ignore. She felt your head and was amazed at how active you were even up until your birth you were moving and kicking and making your presence known.<br><br>
I knew I didn’t want to birth you on my back so instead I rolled on my side and found this to be a comfortable position, I did not want to put my energy into being upright at this point deciding that this was a good and restful position to have you in.<br><br>
I began pushing and felt you descend, I was hoping we were going to be done soon as your girth in my pelvis made me feel as though you were the size of a house, I pushed harder and harder and actually a little too hard, the doctor told me to ease up as she applied oil to me allowing me to stretch to accommodate your head.<br><br>
Your head was born and she asked if I wanted to roll onto my back and bring the rest of you towards me, I felt honored to have my hands on your wet body and brought you up to me. Your cord was loosely around your neck and we slipped it over your head and you and I saw eachother for the first time. Your wet slippery body, your head, your arms and legs. I had thought of this moment many times the first of many times I will be amazed at the sight of you. You let out protesting cries and we wrapped your body to keep you snuggly. it was 11:46 just 14 minuted before your due date.<br><br>
I am so thankful to those who were with us for your birth. It was a calm peaceful environment. My wishes for your birth were respected and honored, and although I strayed slightly from the birth plan I had drawn up, it was my decision to do so and I was empowered by that feeling. You came into the world on our terms not policy, with nothing attached to me or you we managed quietly on our own.<br><br>
I am honored, blessed and amazed by you. I didn’t know what it would be like to have another child. I was nervous that my overwhelming love for Maya wouldn’t translate, that you would be less than her or compared. But the moment I pulled you to me the moment I saw your eyes, my heart, and our family swelled to accommodate you. And here you are your own person, you are strong and you make your voice heard. And yet your eyes tell so much as you look into mine, as we learn the curves of eachothers face and remember the time that we were just one.<br><br>
Your name means small and strong, or song of happiness. And you are all of those things.
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"> That is the sweetest thing...
 

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I am honored, blessed and amazed by you. I didn’t know what it would be like to have another child. I <b>was nervous that my overwhelming love for Maya wouldn’t translate, that you would be less than her or compared. But the moment I pulled you to me the moment I saw your eyes, my heart, and our family swelled to accommodate you. And here you are your own person, you are strong and you make your voice heard. And yet your eyes tell so much as you look into mine, as we learn the curves of eachothers face and remember the time that we were just one.</b><br><br>
Your name means small and strong, or song of happiness. And you are all of those things.</div>
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That is so beautiful mama! I too am nervous about the sharing love but your post made it all go away! What a lucky girl who got you for her mama
 

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What a beautiful birth story! Congratulations on your new arrival <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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thanks everyone. Here are some pics. The one called "sisters" the top pic is DD1 at the same age the bottom is Carolina just for comparison<br><br><br><a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/mama2maya0706/album?.dir=/25bdre2" target="_blank">http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/mama2m...?.dir=/25bdre2</a>
 

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Just Beautiful~ Congrats Mama!
 

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nak<br><br>
mama that is just a beautiful. thank you for sharing your birth story w/ us. it was very powerful! that is oone i'd print and put in her baby book so she will know how it meant to you the day she was born.<br><br>
and your girls are jut beautiful too!
 
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