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we'd been considering it for the past several weeks...mostly because we were both so worried that they were wrong and it wasn't a girl. yes, i realize now how silly that is. but it was a big deal to both of us for a while. on my husband's side, there have been NO girl children forEVER! this little one was sort of like the culmination of generations of trying for girls. dh has 2 brothers, his brother has twin boys, etc...anyway...so it was a big deal that she was a girl.<br><br>
and in my family, there's a legacy that goes back for 6 generations...every woman in my direct maternal line has given birth to her first daughter *just* shy of turning 30. either a couple of weeks or a month or so before she turned 30. this baby is due on my 30th birthday. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"> so it was also a big deal to me to sort of fulfill that family legacy. i know it sounds stupid, but it was a really big deal to me.<br><br>
so i was very worried that they were wrong and it's really a boy and i did NOT want to be disappointed on the day of birth. i didn't want my stupid emotions to cloud the beauty of the day. so i thought that if i get one more u/s and find out that it's a boy, i can at least start dealing with it now.<br><br><br>
and then, somehow, the worry went away. it's not that i'm any more confident that it is a girl, it's that i've realized that i will REALLY be ok if it's a boy. in fact, just thinking about my little boy having a baby brother warms my heart...i talked to dh about it this morning and he's found the same inner peace about it. we're both still going on the assumption that it's a girl, bc two u/s said so...but we're REALLY at peace with the possibility that it's a boy, and i can honestly say that i will be completely ecstatic either way. i couldn't say that before.<br><br>
so, no u/s for us...it feels so much better now... <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/luxlove.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="throb"> anyway, thanks for reading my gibberish. LOL
 

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Its good that you were able to reache that place. I know everyone says it doesn't matter as long as the baby is healthy- and while thats totally true- sometimes there are expectations that you place on yourself or your family places on you but then in the end it really seems to come back to just being healthy.<br><br>
I had my first hypno session with my doula yesterday and it was very powerful- we did a fear release. When we first started I remember having these overwhelming feelings of really wanting this baby- which as stupid as it sounds, I wasn't sure of for a good part of the pregnancy. It made me feel good though to know that deep down I do want her and she knows it.<br><br>
I always add my own crap to your posts, Michele! sorry! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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add away! it reminds me that we're all in this together and feeling a lot of the same things. i'd much rather have you post about your own situation than just comment on mine...especially if it resonates with you!! a fear release does sound really empowering...
 
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