[MCatLvrMom2A&X]

I just need to get this off my chest. So feel free to not finish reading it.

: This morning I had a really horrible time with ds he woke up at 1am and wouldnt nurse back to sleep. He wanted to nurse but I just couldnt stand the thought of being sucked on again

I was so exhaused, but he dosnt do it often thank goodness so at least I know it prolly wont happen again for months. I was having a really hard time holding onto my temper and I got really scared at one point because I was having trouble controling my emotions. Anyway I got up with him and sat in the living room watching tv.

Then dh got up to go to work, that woke up dd and she came in. I am devistated now because I have to go to her school for registration and 8am and I know that there is no way that I can get any sleep now. I start shaking all over and this feeling of total terror just about immobilizes me. They both wanted to lay on me in the chair and I just couldnt handle it.

So I come to the computer site down and finally get myself under some control.

Now the dh part. He comes in from work and goes thru his usual routine. Then lays on the bed I go in to talk to him about me going to the store wanting him to watch the kids cause honestly I dont think I can handle taking them with me. Well he dosnt feel like keeping them

: I try to explain to him what happened this morning and why I dont want to take them and what does he do?? He wont even listen he starts talking about what I need to buy

I needed some support and someone to just listen but can he do that....NO he dosnt even try to understand how scared I was. I know he is tired from work but come on all he has to do is sit in a chair and watch them to make sure they dont get into something. They will watch tv for the most part and they dont need tons of attention for the length of time I will be gone.

*sigh* I am seriously considering going back on Zoloft to help me cope. But I think things would be so much better if he would just listen every once in a while instead of poo-pooing my feelings. If you made it this far thanks for reading and sorry it took so long and was so rambling.

I am still a bit torn up and shakey.

 

[lovemysunshine]

 

[mamaclukey]

Awww... that's not cool. I am sorry he's not hearing you... I would have just left anyway!

 

[nznats]

Personally if it was me, next time you feel like that, wake your hubby up.. I dont care if he has work in the morning, if you are starting to feel your emotions getting out of hand for you he needs to step in and help. Wake him, tell him to watch his son... and walk away. Go and make yourself a hot chocolate or a tea and just take 5 minutes to compose yourself, whether it be 2am or 2pm.
Second... next time just go. Say where you are going and go, as you say it isnt hard to watch them while you run to the store and they are his kids too!

 

[momma2girls]

I hear ya! It sucks. I'm sorry you had a bad day. I know the feeling.

 

[Strong Mama]

 

[SugarAndSun]

That stinks! And it probably made you feel even more emotional to have him act that way. Maybe you could schedule some time for yourself. I am thinking of doing this... Like from 5:30 - 6:00 no one bother me unless it is an emergency. Would it work...

I am just trying to convince dh that everytime ds2 cries it does NOT mean he is hungry. "Do something to soothe him YOURSELF dh!"

 

[LoveChild421]

I hope you are able to catch up on the lost sleep- it sucks having a dh who works nights BTDT

 

[EVC]