I've read "Adventures in Tandem Nursing" and "Mothering Your Nursing Toddler" so I know these feelings are normal, but I just wanted to vent a little, I guess. I'm starting to have real trouble nursing both my dd's at once lately. Ashley's now 2 months old, and I used to be able to nurse them together just fine, but the past week or so has been extremely difficult. Ashley wants to be positioned just so, and Sarah constantly wants to fondle me while she nurses, and it's just been sensory overload lately. Sarah's nursing is what gets under my skin. It's just like it's uncomfortably sensual to the point that it really annoys me. Sometimes I think I'd rather be in pain than feel that way. It doesn't feel that way when I nurse her by herself, but with the two of them--grrr, I just have to grit my teeth sometimes and try to let my mind wander. Then I feel guilty for not enjoying nursing them. Even though it's not her fault, it's sometimes hard not to feel angry at Sarah, and then I feel guilty for that, too. But the problem is, I just don't know how else to get them to sleep for naps and bedtime. Sometimes dh can hold the baby at bedtime while I nurse Sarah, and then switch, but at naptime, he's at work, and Ashley's not content by herself long enough for me to get Sarah to sleep. So I just have to struggle with these feelings instead... AHHHH, Why was it easy for a while and now so hard????