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My baby is 7 months old. I was unable to breastfeed her exclusively--I wanted to, but I had extremely low milk supply (probably due to PCOS) and she kept losing weight. Her first two weeks were extremely stressful for me, because she was nursing constantly, but losing weight consistently (and eventually getting lethargic and whatnot). We started supplementing her with formula and she immediately took off, growing and thriving. I pumped every two hours around the clock, tried all of the herbs, visited LCs, ate oatmeal and drank water until I thought I might explode, etc.<br><br>
Anyway, it was all very stressful and I grieved over it. I wanted so much to breastfeed; it never occurred to me for a moment that I wouldn't be able to make enough milk for her. My husband was very supportive (shelling out all kinds of money we don't have to rent and then buy a pump, feeding her bottles because it was hard for me to do it at first--it just hurt too much--etc.).<br><br>
Last night, I dreamed that we had another baby. My daughter, who was a little older in the dream, sat next to me while I nursed the new baby. I had tons of milk; the new baby nursed and nursed, and was happy and contented (something I only ever experienced with my daughter when she was really newborn--a couple of days--and then she got hungry and was never happy at the breast again.)<br><br>
It was a really nice dream. I was a little worried, even in the dream, because I had forgotten to order domperidone, which I decided I should use next time, but the baby was getting plenty. He snuggled up to the breast and nursed happily, and my daughter sat right next to us and cuddled with us. Thinking about it makes me teary-eyed. I don't know if it's in my future to breastfeed exclusively (I'd happily settle for making half the milk a baby needs! I never got that much with my daughter), but I feel a little better about the situation for some reason.<br><br>
I also thought about it the other day and realized that, even though I could never make enough milk to satisfy my daughter, over the months that I spent breastfeeding and pumping (I stopped when she turned 6 months), my 6 oz per day added up to gallons and gallons. Which is something, if not as much as I wanted.
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> You are not nuts. You went through a hard time and did what you had to do to feed your babe.
 
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