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First off, I know there is a lot of info on here but honestly it is all so overwhelming, especially like the long thyroid and adrenal threads. Some of the stuff in there is familiar-sounding.<br><br>
Pretty much, I am tired. All the time. I want to do things SOO badly. I want to have a beautiful clean house. I want to cook 3 meals a day from scratch. I want to run around with my daughter inside and out. I really really do. But I just sit most of the day, and sleep too much. Luckily my daughter will nap with me relatively well. My schedule is always off because of going to sleep at inappropriate times and then I end up being up all night and asleep at times when I feel I should be awake. The only thing I always do well is take care of my daughter. I love her so much. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"> And some people would say that is a lot, but she is not high-needs, I could be doing a lot else!<br><br>
Doing anything feels like hard work. Even just standing and walking around cooking or putting things away. I am always hungry but too tired to fix food too much. I end up being on the computer too much and just feeling depressed because I am simply too tired to live life! That is a horrible feeling.<br><br>
I try to talk to DP about it, I even told him today how I feel to tired to live, and how he doesn't understand my constant exhaustion. He is a very energetic person and thinks I am simply lazy. That has been a huge problem for all 4 years of our relationship and now it is ending, really. And this way I am is part of the problem, he says. He uses circular kind of things, that I am tired because I don't do anything. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> That huge stress(breaking up) is just making it worse lately, too. And I feel so so so guilty, and part of me does believe him, that this is just a huge character flaw, that I am a bad person and need to get off my ass and do things.<br><br>
But I really want there to be something wrong with me! Not that I want to be sick, god no.... I just want to have something that is fixable. I've felt like this since I was pregnant with my first dd, I think. Around 3 1/2-4 years. I don't think I'm describing it well... Just a constant low. If anyone has any Q's that might help I'd be glad to answer. I'd try to think of more but my brain is sluggish right now.<br><br>
All the advice I find is overwhelming. Everyone saying you HAVE to have this and that and this. I don't have $$$$ for all kinds of vitamins, I live in a tiny town with no homeopaths, D.O.'s.. etc. Lol! I will have $120 in a couple days however, so if anyone has suggestions for absolutely essential things that would help, I could try something. Vit. C, CLO, B-12 dots?..... I have no clue!<br><br>
I'm ashamed to admit this but I've been so desperate I've considered taking pain pills/ritalin/decongestants with ephedrine(heard of that on Glee LOL), just to get the energy to do some deep house-cleaning for once!!!!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> But I haven't done it and I don't want to resort to that. I know too many moms hooked on pain pills around here... I just don't know what to do mamas. I feel like I am not this person on the inside, but right now, I am *that person*...
Pretty much, I am tired. All the time. I want to do things SOO badly. I want to have a beautiful clean house. I want to cook 3 meals a day from scratch. I want to run around with my daughter inside and out. I really really do. But I just sit most of the day, and sleep too much. Luckily my daughter will nap with me relatively well. My schedule is always off because of going to sleep at inappropriate times and then I end up being up all night and asleep at times when I feel I should be awake. The only thing I always do well is take care of my daughter. I love her so much. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"> And some people would say that is a lot, but she is not high-needs, I could be doing a lot else!<br><br>
Doing anything feels like hard work. Even just standing and walking around cooking or putting things away. I am always hungry but too tired to fix food too much. I end up being on the computer too much and just feeling depressed because I am simply too tired to live life! That is a horrible feeling.<br><br>
I try to talk to DP about it, I even told him today how I feel to tired to live, and how he doesn't understand my constant exhaustion. He is a very energetic person and thinks I am simply lazy. That has been a huge problem for all 4 years of our relationship and now it is ending, really. And this way I am is part of the problem, he says. He uses circular kind of things, that I am tired because I don't do anything. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> That huge stress(breaking up) is just making it worse lately, too. And I feel so so so guilty, and part of me does believe him, that this is just a huge character flaw, that I am a bad person and need to get off my ass and do things.<br><br>
But I really want there to be something wrong with me! Not that I want to be sick, god no.... I just want to have something that is fixable. I've felt like this since I was pregnant with my first dd, I think. Around 3 1/2-4 years. I don't think I'm describing it well... Just a constant low. If anyone has any Q's that might help I'd be glad to answer. I'd try to think of more but my brain is sluggish right now.<br><br>
All the advice I find is overwhelming. Everyone saying you HAVE to have this and that and this. I don't have $$$$ for all kinds of vitamins, I live in a tiny town with no homeopaths, D.O.'s.. etc. Lol! I will have $120 in a couple days however, so if anyone has suggestions for absolutely essential things that would help, I could try something. Vit. C, CLO, B-12 dots?..... I have no clue!<br><br>
I'm ashamed to admit this but I've been so desperate I've considered taking pain pills/ritalin/decongestants with ephedrine(heard of that on Glee LOL), just to get the energy to do some deep house-cleaning for once!!!!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> But I haven't done it and I don't want to resort to that. I know too many moms hooked on pain pills around here... I just don't know what to do mamas. I feel like I am not this person on the inside, but right now, I am *that person*...