[JLav]

So, it's been almost 3 weeks since the miscarriage and I feel like my body is getting back to normal...I actually feel like I might be ovulating. I haven't had a check-up yet (I have an appointment on Thursday) so we haven't been having sex. I have an appointment at the dentist tomorrow and I know that I'm going to have a lot of work to be done. I'm pretty sure they'll be able to get it all done over the next two weeks but that means waiting until my next cycle to start TTC. It's just making me crazy to know that I *could* get pregnant right now but I really *shouldn't*. The dental work has to get done this time, I've been putting it off since before DS was born. I just want to be pregnant so badly...I want to have a baby. I hate not being able to TTC and the thought of trying not to conceive is even worse.
I guess I just needed to vent this or see if anyone else is going through this.

I guess I'm really frustrated today because I'm making mama cloth to prepare for the return of my AF and I should be making tiny diapers to prepare for th birth of my baby...

 

[Satori]

I know how you feel

I have to wait until Sept and i'm still waiting to find out if I will get to TTC at all. The wait is fustrating!

 

[QueenOfTheMeadow]

I'm sorry about your loss and sorry you are feeling so down. I often think about what I should be doing also

! It has been about 3 months since my loss, and just started ttcing, but I felt the way you did also, and really didn't want to wait. Dh wasn't even sure until about a week ago if he wanted to ttc again at all. So I know how incredibly hard it can be not to know when you'll start ttcing. I have to admit, that I feel like the time inbetween was put to good use in the mourning process. I am still sad about my loss, was crying this morning about father's day with dh today as a matter of fact. But was able to cope enough to get on and have a nice rest of the day. So I guess that is something good with waiting, but it is so hard to go from being pregnant to suddenly not with nothing to show for it, and your mind is so in the pregnancy mode, that it is so hard to let it go, even for a little while. Hoping that it all works out and you'll be pregnant soon!