I just gave up my dream job.<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> And I'm having very mixed feelings about it. I quit a job I loved 5 years ago to stay home with my kids. I have never looked back and feel like I made the right decision. I kept my foot in the door by working very part-time and doing lots of volunteer work (it was for a public library). I was planning on going back to work someday as a small branch librarian and it was all worked out that I would be taking over when the current librarian retired in about 4 years. Well there is major budget problems and the county is trying to get people to retire early and the librarian is planning on taking the golden handshake. They asked me if I want to take the position when she left. I turned it down, so someone else will be taking the job. She plans on working for at least 10 more years so I will have to wait at least that long until the position comes up again. I have 4 kids ages 1, 3, 7 and 9. I know I made the right decision. My kids need me, life would be to stressful with both dh and I working full time, I don't have daycare....ect. But this has been the job I wanted since I was 17 years old and the extra money would be soooooo nice, I could save for retirement and not have to worry so much. Some days when the kids have been extra hard I just dream about working at my lovely little library. I'm so scared that in 10 years something will happen and it wont work out for me and I will have missed my chance.