I am 18 weeks pregnant and hoping to have a home birth. I am in Canada, where midwife care is covered by our insurance but there is a small budget and many people who want to get a midwife so I am on the waiting lists. It is becoming more and more stressful to wait. My son was born in Japan with a super healthy pregnancy and a planned natural birth which eventually led to a c-section due to my water breaking and labor not following. I really feel this could have been avoided if I had been with a midwife and is the big reason I don't feel comfortable at all in a hospital with the endless unnecessary interventions.My doctor is quite nice and supportive but in the end, he is still a doctor. I am starting to research private midwives that may work outside of the system, or I am also considering travelling to elsewhere in Canada or the US. I just started to consider this option today, I would much prefer to give birth at home or at least close to home. Since I am due in July it is even more difficult to get a spot because all of the midwives are on their summer vacations and they don't hire replacements. I spoke with one midwife today at a birth center where my friend gave birth and it doesn't look promising. so disappointing. Basically I just have to be patient, but it is getting harder every day. I can't imagine going to the hospital to give birth and don't know if I could handle the trauma of another c-section. I know I can have a normal birth if I am not pressured by time lines etc. but I am so afraid of a hospital birth, I don't know what to do.