[JillyD]

DS is 3 weeks old...still a tiny baby. He is my second and our last baby. I am feeling overwhelmingly sentimental about my "child bearing years" (are they really over?), the birth, the newborn (and he is still one!), and all sorts of things related to my pregnancies. I feel like this is crazy! Like, if i go into the room where he was born, sometimes I don't want to change something in that room that was used during the birth (ie: there is a lamp in there that belongs upstairs and I really want it upstairs again but I don't want to move it because I feel like if I do, then I am not going to remember using it during the birth). It's like I am going to forget about this amazing time in my life - like i am going to forget what it felt like to be pregnant...what it is like to have a little baby in my belly...how it feels to give birth...and that amazing moment of birth when the world just stops.

I thought about posting this in the PPD forum but I dont' think it is really PPD...perhaps some form of baby blues (though, i can't say i feel sad, weepy, or depressed really)? Or, perhaps this is just a normal thing that other mama's go through? it's like I am mourning my pregnancies & births or something. Anyone else feel this way? I am hoping it goes away because I feel so far from living in the moment (I keep feeling like it is going so fast!)...

 

[XanaduMama]

I totally understand how you're feeling. I'm not ready to admit that we may not have another (not decided yet)...I get weepy when packing away clothes my kids have outgrown. And I'm not 3 weeks PP either! Let yourself mourn your childbearing years, and the rest of it, if you need to.

If you think the feelings are being exacerbated by hormones, though, can I recommend Motherwort tincture? Tastes disgusting, but it really helped me with those PP "blues" and weepy moments after my second birth.

 

[binspired]

My dd is over 4 m/o and it's a little better, but I still have these feelings. Even though logically, I know that she should be our last, and that's what my husband and I decided, It just makes me really sad that as she grows, I will never have another baby that tiny again. And I might never have another pregnancy again, and so on and so forth. So I guess I don't have any real advice, just a little BTDT support!

 

[Phoebe]

I was nodding my head at everything you said. I have done that, even with my first when I knew he wouldn't be my last. The time is so fleeting and it really is the best time of my life...THE BEST. It's like that is what I have waited for, even without knowing it. And now it's over, just like that.
However, we did have an ooops and now I have a 3rd!!!

This craziness will live on! Ds 1 registered for kindergarten a month ago and that night I cried...thinking of what will be my empty nest in 18-20 short years. Pathetic! But common I think. If not, I'm just as crazy as you are!

 

[AVeryGoodYear]

When you have the time, start writing out everything that you can remember about the birth and these early newborn days. You're unlikely to remember everything with the same vividness as experiencing it, but even now, only 8 weeks post-partum, I can go back and read my baby's birth story and get back into the moments, feeling all teary-eyed. I reread my thoughts from her first few weeks of life and it's amazing how, already, she's changed so much. I realized that there are already certain mannerisms she's grown out of. I really, really recommend trying to keep a written record of what you can :]